Everyone Deserves Happiness.

Chapter 21

⚠️TW⚠️talk about  suicide

It had been 2 weeks of this roller coaster week at Seattle grace. They broke up and she almost died and they got back together.It was crappy but they survived it.

"Ok yeah it's been awhile and you've healed nicely Meredith you can go home and Dr.Shepherd  I've already told Richard that you'll be taking a leave of absence to make sure she heals properly"

"Thank you Bailey" Derek said with a smile

"Thank you Dr. Bailey for everything" Meredith gushed

"No problem Meredith.I'll see you soon Derek bye!"

Bailey left the room and Derek and Meredith started packing to leave the room.

"Mer"
"Hmm?"
"We need to talk"
"I know I know"
"Ok that's.. that's good"
They packed in silence and made their way out of the building but not before Derek insisting she left in a wheelchair.

"Derek your being over dramatic I don't need a wheelchair."

"Oh be quiet yes you do"

"Your so annoying " she pouted

"Mhm" he smiled down at her and kissed the top of her head

He rolled her out, and she got up and they walked to the car.

"You know a lot of crappy things has happened to us" she laughed

"Yeah a lot of really crappy things has happened" he laughed back

"I mean it's ridiculous really"

"It is, it really is"

They drove the whole way back without talking.. they knew there was a conversation that needed to be had but no one knew where to start. They said a lot of things really hurtful things but how do they repair it?

They made it home and brought there belongings upstairs and packed them in more silence.

"Derek"

"Yeah?" He said as he was about to take off his shirt

"Um can you wait outside while I change?"

"Yeah, yeah of course" he felt bad, that she was so uncomfortable around him because of all the crap that's happened. He wish he could take it all away.

He went to the guest room and continued changing while Meredith changed in their room.

"I'm done you can come back now!" She yelled

He was happy. He just wanted to be with her it didn't matter how.

He walked back to the room and Meredith was sitting in bed under the covers and she patted his side, signaling he should come sit down beside her.

"So"

"So"

This was awkward. Who would start? What would they even say?

"Meredith you said you hated me, resented me and that it was my fault and then you said you trusted me and you weren't mad so how do you really feel.

"I don't know. I- apart of me still blames you for everything that's happened and another part... a bigger part knows it wasn't your fault and I can trust you"

"I'm battling so much things right now so if I'm hot and cold I'm sorry I'm trying .. I'm tr-try-trying really hard" she started to cry

Derek cupped her face and leaned in to kiss her.
First time in almost four weeks they're lips made contact and it felt nice. It was like a spirit booster. Both of them instantly felt better. Meredith wrapped her hands around his neck and deepened the kiss for a bit before pulling away.