Everyone Deserves Happiness.

Chapter 69

It's been a week in the hospital and Meredith looked and felt worse. She didn't hold that many long conversations with Derek or anyone anymore because she was so weak. She vomited often and every other hour she had a nosebleed. She spent her time sleeping or whimpering from the pain she was in.

Derek had suffered during this week. Watching her go from smiling and giggling slightly to crying and bleeding constantly. This was a situation he didn't know how to be mcdreamy in. Now of course he was there for everything. He pulled her hair back,wiped the sides of her face and helped whenever she had a nose bleed. He was useful he was a doctor he knew how to do this. He's had many leukemia patients but none of them were the love of his life so this was very different.

He wanted to spend his time holding her and just feeling her body against his but he didn't want to hurt her. By squeezing to hard or making her uncomfortable even though she tried to convince him he wouldn't, he wouldn't listen and she didn't have the energy to argue with him.

"Derek " she whispered. It was late at night or really early morning and her nose was bleeding again.

"Yes what's going on?" He said sitting up

"My nose it's bleeding it again" she whimpered

He clicked the button on her remote to make her bed sit up and he turned on the light. He grabbed a bucket Ray had given him for this precisely. He placed it under her and grabbed two towels. He placed the first one to her nose and then used the other two to wipe her hands and other parts the blood may have dropped on.

"Derek can you please come back to the bed"

"No you need all the space and I don't want to hurt you."

"I'd rather cuddle with you then the hospital pillow"

"I know but I'd rather you cuddle a pillow then me potentially hurting you"

"You're mean"

"I love you"he said smiling at her. God she was just the most beautiful person he'd ever seen. He could stare at her all day and never get bored.

"Why are you looking at me like that? I'm not going to say it back" she pouted

"Your beautiful and I love you enough for both of us."

She looked away from and he chuckled at how flustered she became whenever he complimented her.

He moved the towel to see if the bleeding stopped and it did. He wiped the excess blood from around her nose and clicked the button that lowered her bed.He put the bloodied towels in the bucket and put it back in the corner.Once in a comfortable position, he kissed her forehead and walked to turn off the light and lay on the couch.

"Derek please"

"Meredith " he groaned "No"

"My surgery is today. What if I die and you didn't get to cuddle with me"

Shit. He forgot her surgery was today ..or tomorrow it was 3 in the morning so I guess today that's not the point, that wasn't entirely true...he didn't forget her surgery was today. Instead Like a bad thought he pushed it out of his mind and tried not to think about it. They were going in to see how many mets were there and then proceed to remove as many as possible. This was a dangerous surgery because of how small the Mets were and because of how easy it is for them to make new ones. Which could lead to surgery after surgery after surgery.

"That's not fair" he breathed

"What's not fair is that my husband won't come and sleep with me"

Derek told a deep breath before getting up and getting into bed with her. He couldn't say no to her, not forever at least.

He wrapped his arms around her as gently as possibly and she placed her hands on chest and laid on him. Mmm home it was a safe place being in each others arms like this.