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Waves(songfic)

There is a swelling storm

Peter felt it getting bad again
And I'm caught up in the middle of it all

He was doing so many things, but he felt like he was just standing in the middle of an endless nothingness
And it takes control

The nothingness was slowly swallowing him
Of the person that I thought I was

What he did, what he felt
The boy I used to know

He remembered how it was before, it was good before, but before that, it was worse than now

But there is a light

The boy knew he just had to find the straight to pull himself out of this
In the dark, and I feel its warmth

He had to find the straight to get back to it being good
In my hands and my heart

He knew he could, he had done it all before
Why can't I hold on?

But never for too long

It comes and goes in waves

His life was a circle of good and bad
It always does, always does

His parents died
We watch as our young hearts fade

But he got May and Ben
Into the flood, into the flood

Ben died

The freedom of falling

But he found MJ and Ned
A feeling I thought was set in stone

And he had thought that life had finally given him enough bad
It slips through my fingers

But May was gone
I'm trying hard to let go

He tried to hold on to his friends, and Mr. Stark
It comes and goes in waves

And it was great hanging out with Mr. Stark, working in the lab, watching movies
It comes and goes in waves

But then the warehouse fell on him and the nightmares came back, so did the panic attacks
And carries us away

Now he was sitting on top of a building, waiting for Karen to announce another crime

Through the wind

He wanted to think that there was no reason for him being spider-man, but this had happened before and he just reminded himself that he had to push through it.
Down to the place we used to lay when we were kids

But what was the point? all of his family had died and he couldn't do anything about it
Memories of a stolen place

He remembered hugging his dad so tight, the warmth he had never felt after his death
Caught in the silence

The memories of his mother's smile that he will never see again
An echo lost in space

Of Ben ruffling his hair and May cooking dinner

It comes and goes in waves

He didn't want to focus on it; he wanted to focus on MJ and Ned joking around and Mr. Stark calling him 'kid'
It always does, it always does

But the memories of his lost ones kept coming back
We watch as our young hearts fade

Memories of their deaths, and how he knew that if he would have been better or stronger they would be alive right now
Into the flood, into the flood

How maybe if he hadn't gotten into an argument with Ben, his uncle would still be here

The freedom of falling

The boy screamed. He screamed for all of the memories he couldn't erase and all of the feelings that wouldn't disappear.
A feeling I thought was set in stone

Peter jumped off the building and felt the wind blow in his teary eyes
It slips through my fingers

He shot the web just in time to catch himself
I'm trying hard to let go

It wasn't smart thinking about letting go of the web, but if he wasn't here he could be with his family
It comes and goes in waves

But he had thought this before
It comes and goes in waves

And he never really did it
And carries us away

So he swang to the next crime scene and fought like usually did, only without commenting his opponent

I watched my wild youth

This just made him remember the play fights he would have with Ben
Disappear in front of my eyes

But the memories vanished from his eyes when he felt a sharp pain in his abdomen. The pain was enormous and he stopped fighting. He knew he wouldn't heal from this one.
Moments of magic and wonder

At this moment he only could think about what was he leaving behind
It seems so hard to find

He was leaving behind the handshake they and Ned had created
Is it ever coming back again?

He was leaving behind MJ calling him a loser
Is it ever coming back again?

He was leaving behind being Spider-man
Take me back to the feeling when

He was leaving behind working on their suits and eating cheese-burgers with Mr. Stark
Everything was left to find

Funny, how he could only think of what was bad in a situation

It comes and goes in waves

At that moment he came to an understanding with what had happened to him. he was okey.

It always does, oh it always does

Okey, with what he had gained and okey with what he had lost

And the freedom of falling

There were tears in his eyes
A feeling I thought was set in stone

But a smile on his face
It slips through my fingers

And all of the good and all of the bad
I'm trying hard to let go

It was seen in his face as he looked at the skies
It comes and goes in waves

All the good and all the bad he had gone through
It comes and goes in waves

All the good and all the bad he had seen
And carries us away

It was all okey