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Feel something (songfic)

TW: mentions self-harm, depression

I don't care if it hurts

Tony's life was numb
I'll pay my weight in blood

He felt like he was looking out at the world not from his eyes, but a stranger's. And this stranger didn't care, didn't care for the man he was looking at nor for the rest of the people
To feel my nerves wake up

It was like the whole world was a black and white picture
So love me now or let me go

That was until a boy walked into his life
Let me feel these highs and lows

Peter made him look at the world and see the colorful picture from his own eyes
Before the doors to my heart close (close)

A kid made the most stubborn man in the world listen to him

Touch me someone

The kid made the most cold-hearted man let in the feelings, he had kept out for many years
I'm too young to feel so

But that boy was gone, turned to dust
Numb, numb, numb, numb

And the man could no longer see anything, he could no longer feel anything
You could be the one to

Peter was his life

Make me feel something, something

The reason to get up, the reason to feel
Make me feel something, something

Feel protective, and happy, and all the things he hadn't felt in what felt like a thousand years
Show me that you're human, oh

Fell like a human being
Make me feel something, something

Turn his gray wold into a colorful explosion

I never thought I'd miss the bittersweet

He could've spent so much more time whit the kid
I gave those years away

They could have spent more time in the lab, he could've listened to his rambles
And lost my sense of taste

That was all he could think of when even the memories were slowly losing color
'Cause all of your lovers eventually, fade

All the compassion that was born in him
And leave you alone in the bed you made

Was slowly dying
And all of the colors that bleed to gray leave nothing

The waves of emotions he learned to feel

Touch me someone

They calmed down and disappeared
I'm too young to feel so

All of the feelings - gone
Numb, numb, numb, numb

And his life was numb
So give me just enough to

His work was numb and the parties were numb

Make me feel something, something

Sometimes the pain of the memories would resurface
Make me feel something, something

And then he was happy to feel pain while it lasted
Show me that you're human, oh

He could understand the phrase – pain makes you human
Make me feel something, something

The numbness and the pain was all he got

So if you're gonna stay, then stay

Peter had left him
But if you're gonna go

And there was no way of bringing him back
Make sure that you hurt me just enough to

He wanted for the pain to stay, but it disappeared along whit the wawes

Make me feel something, something

The man needed to feel anything
Make me feel something, something

So he fought with his friends, he drank, he cut, but nothing could bring back the feeling, he had had when Peter was around
Show me that I'm human, oh

The kid was the only thing keeping him human
Make me feel something, something

Without him, Tony slowly turned into iron

Make me feel something, something

Slowly turned into a machine