Anything&Everything

Hardships and anxiety - a risky mixture

Going through hard times is already tough on it's own. Adding already existing mental health issues to that takes it to another level.

I talk about anxiety so much in this book. If you scroll to some of the first chapters I posted you will see how lost I was. How unsure and scared I was of my own feelings. I still am scared a lot of the times but now I at least know where it all came/comes from. My therapist and I have dug to such deep places in my heart, the ones I didn't even know existed. To the things and situations I didn't even consider crucial but that turned out to be some of the primary reasons for my struggles.

Right now I am going through some really tough things. Everything kinda combined together and has made me feel "restricted" the past few weeks. Like I am not allowed or actually physically unable to take a deep breath, each one feels shallow or short. I feel like my life is put on pause which is horrible and very wrong. But I am fighting. Learning how to get accustomed to change, how to not lose my mind each time I am invited somewhere new, trying to freak out less when things spontaneously change or appear.
For example, I am going to a birthday party in a few days (I am fully vaccinated, so it should be alright, hopefully), it going to be pretty big, there will be people I don't know and to tell you that I am driving myself up the wall is like saying nothing. (overthinking says heyo)

Overall, going through hardships is never nice, it hurts, it scars you but it also teaches you and makes you stronger.

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P.S. hello to anyone reading this:) this is a very very random piece, i had a different idea for it at first but because i wasn't able to write it down right away when it struck me, i lost all motivation and imagination later haha
either way, i hope you are doing okay and i am sending love and hugs your way. in case you have any requests for future chapters you are very welcome to comment:)
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