Anything&Everything

The way the mind works

I was at the countryside with my family today, and I had a lot of free time, so I decided to scroll through the photos on my phone. And when I got to July and all the pictures taken at the country house we lived in for about a month, I felt chills run down my spine because it brought back all the negative memories from there. I only now realize how truly bad I was doing during that time.

It's not like something horrible in particular happened during that time but I just wasn't happy. At all. I wouldn't say I am doing good right now either, but the way I felt there, was definitely the lowest I have felt in my entire life.

I would already wake up in a bad mood. Nothing really made me smile. I had a horrible relationship with social media, where I felt anxious anytime I would open Instagram. My health problems were never ending and became severe. Agh. It even hurts me to write all of this down right how.

But the reason why I am writing this is because I now understand how crazy our mind actually is. It's truly astonishing. I see the smile I had in those photos but I can clearly see the pain in my eyes. I don't want to ever come back there. It's not because of the place itself. It's beautiful there. But I feel like it will just remind me of everything I felt during that time and I don't want that.

Recently, I started to really take care of my mental well-being. I downloaded an app, which has different breathing exercises and tips on how to calm down in certain stressful situations. It does wonders and I really recommend trying it. This is not an ad in any way🤣 but the app is called Headspace, if anyone is interested.

I hope everyone is doing okay. If it's not your day today, then I am sending you the biggest warmest hug and some chocolate.

Thank you to everyone who has been helping me deal with some things the last few days. I love and adore you all so much❤️