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Therapy

Something that I have mentioned on here a few times but never really properly addressed, was that I started therapy in October. Not going to lie, it was a tough decision. But I got to the point where I really felt lost, tired, defeated, broken. So after experiencing my first ever panic attack, I told myself: enough, something needs to change.

It was such a huge breath of fresh air for me. I finally talked about the things that were hurting me so much deep inside but that were never addressed with my friends and family. I look forward to every Friday so much because I know that I'll be able to sit down for an hour and just let all my emotions flow freely.

Today was the first time when I wasn't that excited for it. The whole week I have been in a weird mood and I just felt stuck. Like I wasn't making any progress, like everything is still the same, I am still the same. That thought scared me a bit. Therapy has always felt like that safe place for me but today I was so tired that I just didn't feel like talking about anything with anyone.

Now that it's been three hours since I have finished my session, I am so, so glad that I had it.

I am so blessed and thankful to have a therapist who really makes me feel so at ease, so understood. I saw her on the screen( because I have Skype sessions) and I immediately smiled. In a moment I felt so much more relaxed and calm because I knew that this person was ready to listen to everything I have kept in my head this past week and give me great advice.

What am I trying to say with this? If you feel like life is too hard for you in the moment or something is bothering you so much that it's affecting everything around you, ask for help. It's a big step but it's so worth it. I still have a long way to go, there are many things to figure out for me but I can't wait for that moment when I'll be able to say that I am happy, that I feel strong and ready for many different things that life is going to bring my way.

I love you guys❤️