Talking to myself- YeonBin

Chapter 17- Did you just out yourself like that?

Author Pov

After that night Beomgyu and Taehyun kept their eyes on the youngest. It definitely wasn't within their intentions to hurt the boy and make him feel that way he did. They felt almost guilty for what had happened. Kai had always been precious to them and they didn't want to see him hurting like he was. Yeonjun and Soobin on the other hand aren't really aware of what happened but they just continued as normal.

The next week of school for Beomgyu and Taehyun was spent looking after Kai and making sure he received lots of love and affection while also maintaining their relationship.

It was Friday again. The groups usually hang out day but not today. "YA SOOBIN" Yeonjun yelled across the failf. It was the end of the day and everyone was ready to go home and do nothing but clearly Yeonjun had other plants as today he wanted company. Today Kai was staying at school late for dance practice and as for Gyu and Tae, they were going to the park which means Soobin and Yeonjun are the only people around.

Soobin ran across the field and out of the school gates to where Yeonjun was standing. "Took you long enough, everyones already gone," Yeonjun murmured. The school was practically silent, no one was around. "Hey i'm the only one around to be with you, be nice unless you want me to leave you alone you bitch" Soobin responded out of breath. "This 'bitch' is your Hyung" Yeonjun teased. The pait often had conversations like this but not normally without the company of their friends that would make various comments along the lines of 'old married couple' or 'get a room'.

Soobin knelt down on the floor, gripping onto Yeonjun's leg. "I'm sOrRy YEoNjun OpPa, I'll NevEr hUrt yoU aGAin" Soobin wailed with a fake cry. "I'm sOrrY YeOnjUn OPpa, forGivE mE YEonJun OPpA" he added as he shook Yeonjun's leg jokingly. Obviously Soobin was messing around as always but Yeonjun on the other hand just stood. Being called that name by Soobin was a first for him and to say the least it felt weird. His eyes were wide as he looked down at Soobin who met his eye contact and started to laugh. "Get up, you've been forgiven" Yeonjun instructed with a smile after his brief panic.

(Yes this was indeed normal for them)

"So, what do you wanna do?" Soobin asked, recovering from his acting performance with a smile. "How about my house this time?" Yeonjun asked with hopeful eyes. "Anything you want, Oppa~~~" Soobin responded with a teasing intention. "Hey sto- never mind. My place is then" Yeonjun replied. "Yey" Soobin remarked with a boop on Yeonjun's nose, making him smile once again.

The walk there was nice and peaceful. Despite Soobin's murdering ways, he still lives the life of a normal boy who goes out with his friends, attends school and all that jazz. Realistically, other than his episodes, Soobin is decently calm and unbothered, however he did panic when he remembered that he wasn't supposed to know where Yeonjun lived yet. Yes, Soobin had been there before but not to Yeonjun's knowledge.

Soobin knew the way to Yeonjun's house as if it were his own. He pretty much knew the insides as well. No, he had never been inside but peeking through windows for as much time as he has sorted gave him the overall image of how the house was. Yeonjun was obviously completely clueless about this and continued 'leading'  the way to his house.

When they arrived Soobin knew that he would have to act as if it were a new environment so that's exactly what he did.

Soobin POV-

When we arrived at his gate I made sure to stare in awe, " When you said your house was completely different despite being close to mine, you really weren't lying" I remarked as he looked for his keys. " Yeah, but I like your house better," Yeonjun said as he unlocked the door. I paused as he said that. Yeonjun prefers my house?

'Take him to your house and keep him there forever' the voice inside my head screamed at me. No soobin stop thinking that. You're close enough to him to not have to do that.please Soobin stop it. 'He will never willingly love you so just simply take him away with you' the voice continued. This is bad, very bad. Soobin stop thinking right now, please.

"Why do you like it there, it's so small and...dark?" I asked, pushing the not so good thoughts away. "Hey your house is cute and small, don't offend it" he responded with a small pout. "My house cant get offended now can it?" I asked with a little laugh. "Evil child" Yeonjun murmured as we took off our shoes and headed for what I assumed to be his bedroom.

As I entered my mouth dropped. I think it just dawned on me that me, Choi Soobin, was inside Yeonjun's room. It looks so much better from the inside. The colourful books seemed even more vibrant. The pale grey walls seemed much lighter and welcoming. It seems so much more real.

"So you like my house when you live in THIS" I yelled in shock. "Mhm, I guess so" Yeonjun responded. "Your crazy Hyung" I mumbled. "Not as crazy as you, must I remind you about your little episode earlier?" Yeonjun teased, referring to my deeply over dramatic apology earlier. "Tease me anymore and I'll go for you just the same," I responded. "How so Soobin, you're the crazy one" Yeonjun teased. I swear this kid. This boy may be older than me but boy he doesn't act like it. "And you're the one who has an Oppa kink, I saw your face earlier." I teased back with a smirk.

As expected Yeonjun's face glowed a pale shade of red. He tried to talk but clearly he just couldn't get his words out. Everytime his mouth opened it would close again pretty much instantly. He sat on his bed crossing his arms in frustration. He looked so tiny, I couldn't help but talk to him. "Junnie~" I said, dragging my voice out. Nothing. Silence. "My lovely Junnie I am so sorry, please talk to me. Even if you do have that I respect that on another level." I whined. "Where the fuck did that come from" Yeonjun finally spoke. "Honestly no clue, I had nothing better to say" I admitted. Yeonjun lightly hit me on the arm as his pout intensified. "Soobin, why would you out me like that?" Yeonjun said, still clearly on edge. What did he just say? WHAT? Did he forget who he was talking to so something.

"Excuse me WHAT? Did you really just out yourself like that" I kinda yelled in complete shock. "We're friends so who does it hurts. Truly I couldn't be less bothered that you know that I just wanted to see you whine" Yeonjun said, taking his arms away from his chest, smiling like the devil. "Yeah I think I like it" he confirmed as he watched my face fall in confusion. "Dude...my innocent Yeonjunnie~" I complained. "I said I think. I've never been in a situation like that before dude chill" Yeonjun reassured, "but now you see as payback you've gotta tell me one thing about you just like what I said" Yeonjun stated. Now he was the one smirking.

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN THIS HOUSE. Yeonjun simply exists and this happens. Sometimes I forget why I love him. I sat in silence. I'm not too sure what to say. "Nervous? I'll detail mine then" Yeonjun stared confidently. "I think I like being called Oppa. I also kinda think I have a thing for degrading" he stated happily. He switches up too fast I swear. "Jesus you really aren't an innocent one" I laughed, returning to normal. "I never said I was so dunno where you got that from" he giggled. Cute.

I would be lying if I said I didn't like this conversation. I was alway happy to find out anything and everything I could about Yeonjun. "Now you" He said as he clearly got impatient. "I've never really thought about it," I admitted.Its true I havent thought about anything like that. I watched as Yeonjuns expression changed to a completely new one. "Then I guess we will just have to find out"