Talking to myself- YeonBin

Chapter 27- I need to get out of here

THE NEXT DAY
AUTHOR POV

After yesterday Yeonjun and Soobin had continued happily. The small actions of affection like hugs felt so different to how they once did as if they meant something more.

Soobin himself felt so much better knowing that his Yeonjun had finally come to him. The stress that he would lose him was somewhat dying down, only the small feat of him being taken away lingered around.

Yeonjun was, well, happy to say the least. He felt relieved, nervous and excited all at the same time. Quite frankly he was just happy in life.

And then there's the other 3. Taehyun, Beomgyu and Kai.lets just say that they're having a tough time if you know what I mean.

LOCATION- SCHOOL
BEOMGYU POV

Another day of Kai avoiding us. Honestly this boy is starting to bother me. When he's here, he looks drained of life and never stays for long. It hurts my heart seeing him so confused and I'm sure Taehyun feels the same. Since that day we both confessed that we liked Kai collectively. Me and Taehyun had been first trying to figure out what could be wrong with him but nothing would spring to mind.

I'm currently sitting in lesson 4, English, starting over at Kai from across the room. I couldn't see him properly but I could tell that something was us. He was slouched over, a mask covering his lower face. I didn't miss the fact that he was in long sleeves mid summer. Just what is he hiding?

I was snapped out of my thoughts when the bell for lunch rang, I watched as Kai pulled his belongings together as I did the same. He was in the rush. He was about to leave when I sped myself up and grabbed his backpack strap before he could get a step closer to the door.

I expected him to not be right but the look of exhaustion in his eyes alone had my heart breaking. "Hyung?" Kai asked quietly as the rest of the class left the room. "Kai, come to lunch today" I urged. If he goes I might just be able to be able to figure out what's going on here. "I don't want to eat,'' Kai murmured in response. That's unlike him.

I only know one thing that could get him to follow me. "Soobin and Yeonjun told me there's something they want to tell us all" I reasoned. I watched as his dull eyes widened slightly "you mean to tell me the ship may have sailed" he whispered. I nodded my head and his eyes lit up instantly. "Come on then" I said as I took him by the wrist. He winced slightly but it's only because I grabbed him suddenly as we left the room in a swift second. To the lunch hall we go.

Kai hadn't been here for ages. None of us had seen him in here at least. He didn't talk to us much either so there wasn't even anything to kind of explain it. It's a shame really, things could be so different around here. After me and Tae came to our realisation that we both liked Kai i've been hoping he would appear back in my life again.

KAI POV

As Beomgyu dragged me into the lunch hall I felt myself panicking. I kno0w for sure that all of my friends are suspicious of me and now I'm going to be stuck with them at a lunch table. Fucking great.

I'm only here to listen to what Soobin and Yeonjun have today, after that i'm leaving no matter what.

As we got nearer to the table I saw Yeonjun, Taehyun and Soobin's eyes widen in shock like I was some sort of freak. They wouldn't be wrong in thinking so but hey. I can't tell exactly what they're feeling but for sure this was gonna be one hell of a conversation. Time to seem fine.

"HYUKA?" Taehyun half shouted as I sat down next to Beomgyu. Seeing him so concerned was weird but it might just be me. "Yes Hyung?" I answered cheerfully. Just a little while longer. I didn't want to look any of them in the eyes but specifically Taehyun and Beomgyu, hence I kept my head towards Jun and Binnie most of the time. "Where have you been for so long? Are you avoiding us?" Yeonjun accused playfully.

YES, YES I AM BUT BELIEVE ME I DON'T WANT TO BE.

"No, I've just been busy I guess" I smiled, not that they could see through my mask. Taehyun nodded slightly in response as he went back to eating peacefully.

"Alright alright let's not overload him with anymore questions the instant he comes back, he is only a child" Soobin insisted with a sweet smile. "I am not a child" I sassed back in my usual manner, I may not be the best at the moment but I will not, and I repeat will not, be told I am a child.

"Whatever you say CHILD, can we talk about my thing now?" Yeonjun pleaded with begging eyes. He is still the same for sure, maybe slightly more lively but when you're around Choi Yeonjun things are always gonna be a bit like that. "Yes hyung go on" Beomgyu said happily as he sipped on what seemed to be a soda of some description.

"Well, since yesterday...ummm. You tell them Soobin" Yeonjun stuttered as he hid in Soobin's chest. From the small part of his face I could see I could tell for sure that he was blushing. "Ashamed or something?" Soobin teased quietly as he lent down to Yeonjun's ear. "No, you say though" Yeonjun answered, his head still hiding away. "Fine, since yesterday me and Yeonjun started dating" Soobin admitted shyly.

To me it was no shock, I always saw this coming from day one. Since Yeonjun brought him to us I've felt that little inkling and needless to say I was correct. I felt my face lift into another smile as Yeonjun's red face showed once again.

"YOU WHAT. You're messing" Teahyun stated in disbelief. "Would we really joke about this?" Soobin asked in confusion. "TaeTae I think they are serious, you know," Beomgy urged as he laid his head on his boyfriend's shoulder.

That should be me

Why don't I get that

All these thoughts ran through my head at a rate of knots until I snapped out of it when Yeonjun decided to set the record straight for once and for all. "Oh yeah, I'm serious because if I wasn't would I do this?" Yeonjun smirked as he pulled Soobin towards him, placing his lips on his in a soft kiss.

Considering the fact that when they pulled away Soobin was literally glowing with a shade of red I had never seen before I can only assume that they were never joking.

"Awwww congrats guys" I said in a sweet tone. "What he said '' Beomgyu laughed as we all gazed towards the new couple with loving eyes. Thinking about it, they always acted like this, I don't get why Beomgyu and Tae doubted it.

"Yeonjunnie~ why did you go that far?" Soobin whined once his face stopped glowing. "Why not. I have a beautiful boyfriend that I wanted to show off" Yeonjun sassed as he tucked his imaginart hair behind his ears. "I-" Beomgyu stuttered. "You shut it walking ball of chaos, you and your boyfriend over there do exactly the same thing whenever we're together" Soobin snapped before directing his attention back to Yeonjun.

Beomgyu and Taehyun just looked at each other. They knew as a fact that they did exactly the same thing so there was no use in arguing against Soobin's point.

I just sat as the two couples became slowly more engrossed in each other, leaving me out slightly. I began to feel the same again.

What if I made Taehyun and Beomgyu break up?

No that wouldn't work, I wanna be with them both.

It's not like I can just ask to join them.

That would disgust them.

I don't want to be near them when I feel like this. I don't want to be tempted. My heart began racing in my chest as I figured out how to get myself out of here. I don't want to be here anymore. My eyes welled with tears, the familiar feeling causing my throat to tighten instantly.

"I have to go" I mumbled before getting up and practically running out of the lunch hall with no extra explanation.

Where am I gonna go? No clue. Does it feel better to be away from them? Well, yes and no I guess.