A WEEK LATER
AUTHOR POV
Another week passed. Soobin and the others still haven't spoken. It was starting to get a bit...out of hand on Soobin's end. The length of their parting had started to really take a toll on him, his patience and his will to wait any longer.
Soobin had killed people before. You know that. It was something that satisfied him. Whenever he killed someone for the slightest reason it was enough to satisfy him for days.
You might be wondering why I'm telling you this. Since Yeonjun went M.I.A from Soobin, it's been driving Soobin slowly insane. He has the urges to do things and that's without a doubt.
Thinking about all the people Yeonjun must be talking to when he's not around boiled his blood. He first started off with a decent amount of patience. A week ago he figured patience would be all he would need.
He didn't expect it to take this much patience.
SOOBIN POV
"I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE" I shouted, the noise echoing through my room.
Over the past few weeks my patience has been wearing thin.
Scarily thin.
The thoughts of getting Yeonjun back in my grasp is all I can think of. It's all I want and need.
I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I went through another urge resistance. Every couple of days this would happen. The part of my brain that wanted Yeonjun would act up. Because it's what my brain wants, it's all I can think about.
Whenever it would get worse I would get restless, unable to be still or think straight. The pressure I have on myself is driving me insane. Knowing Yeonjun lives down the road, so easy to get to, makes this more frustrating.
My breathing quickened as I started to pick at the skin on the sides of my fingers, drawing a small slither of blood down my finger. It was getting too much.
Only a few messages ran through my brain.
Be patient.
You need Yeonjun.
Kill
Kidnap
Get your hands back on him.
Two of those are seemingly disturbing if you think about them wrong. I would kill or kidnap Yeonjun, no, someone else just to take my frustration out.
With my mother I killed her out of frustration. When she was dead I felt somewhat human again so maybe I just need the same thing again.
"Yeah, that must be it" I sighed as I felt myself returning to normal.
Maybe I could find someone, it would benefit me so I don't see why I couldn't.
Just who???
THE NEXT DAY
BEOMGYU POV
"KAIIIIIII" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Me and Taehyun were currently waiting for him to come downstairs so we could watch a movie together but choosing a plushie to keep by his side appeared to be talking quite a while.
"Im here, I'm here" Kai assured as he raced through the door to the living room with a large stuffie in his hands. "Looks like you want to cuddle that thing more than us" Taehyun sassed, "maybe you love him more than us" he teased. "Don't say that about my Molang, he might hear you" Kai whisper shouted, covering the toy's ears.
"Alright alright just come and sit down, I don't want a numb ass before the movie even starts" I whined. "Quit complaining or I'll give you a numb ass for another reason and I can promise it won't be from sitting" Kai threatened with a smile. Taehyun's mouth dropped in shock. "Oh Gyu look what you did!" Taehyun gasped.
"ENOUGH, just watch the film and give me cuddles,'' I instructed, pressing play before anyone could say anything. The other two happily huddled into me, all of us cuddling during the movie all the way until the end.
As the credits rolled I realised Kai was specifically fidgety, as if something were stabbing into his back or something.
"You all good Kai?" I asked with a little concern. With how he had been for a long time you can't not be concerned for him every once and a while.
"I'm fine it just feels like something is poking me in the back" Kai grimaced as he finally stood up. There was nothing evident where he sat. "Let's just clear the sofa off, it needs it anyway" I said as I left a kiss on Kai's forehead to which the otters happily complied.
We tore off tcovershthat were to protect the sofas from getting dirty.
Nothing.
We moved all the blankets that we had brought down from upstairs.
Nothing
Maybe there really was nothing.
I moved the two large sofa cushions to tuck the covers back in when my hand hit something strange making me flinch backwards.
"What is it bub?" Taehyun asked as he held Kai tightly. "There's something down the side" I mumbled as I shook myself off. "I want to see, I want to see!" Kai said happily as he fearlessly dove his arm down the side pulling out two white objects.
They were two cylinder shapes made of white plastic, loads of writing on all the sides. They rattled when they moved.
"What the fuck are those?" Taehyun exclaimed as he grabbed one from Kai.
Kai's face went pale as he read what he was holding.
"These are antidepressants. Read the label on that one" Kai said blankly.
Taehyun wheat straight to the bottle he was holding and read the label. "These are for IED. Anyone know what that is?" Taehyun asked.
Me and Kai shook our heads. It's not anything I've heard of for sure. I took my phone from my pocket and typed it into google hoping to find a result and sure enough I did.
"Intermittent explosive disorder (IED) is an impulse-control disorder characterized by sudden episodes of unwarranted anger. The disorder is typified by hostility, impulsivity, and recurrent aggressive outbursts" I read from google dictionary with a blank face.
"Wait- which one of you owns these. It's not me" Kai asked with a frown. "Not me" I stated firmly. "Me neither," Taehyun remarked, shaking his head.
"Then...read the name on the label?" Kai suggested. We really were working off of a small source here.
"Choi...Soobin" Kai read with wide eyes. "Soobin" Taehyun read. "Soobin has....those...and didn't tell us?" I asked, trying to clarify the situation.
"It seems so but wait..." Kai trailed off clearly having hit a lightbulb moment in his head.
"You and him argued. He got really mad and yelled, correct?" Kai asked. "Well yeah he did get really angry, he was quite harsh" Taehyun answered willingly, trying to grasp where Kai was going.
"It wasn't his fault. Think about it. Soobin has an anger disorder. Did he appear to be looking for anything when he was sitting here?" Kai asked, getting closer to his point.
"He was rummaging around his bag for a few minutes before he left in frustration" I replied. Please let this not lead to something bad. It's already bad enough.
"What if he was looking for these? What if that's why he lost control? What if it...wasn't his fault?" Kai asked as he looked at me and Taehyun in realisation.
It hadn't been Soobin's fault.
"Call Yeonjun"
A/N- Hello my lovel readers, heres a new chapter for you. The past couple of days ive been starting to feel really really sick and today its the worst its been so I decided to update while I rest. Please let me know if there are any errors that I havent spotted, im not exactly 100%. Stay healthy and hydrated :)
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