Talking to myself- YeonBin

Chapter 83- Always and forever

YEONJUN POV

I knelt before Soobin, begging for him to believe me.

“Soobin I swear I love you” I whispered, gripping the bottoms of his legs with my bloody hands.

Soobin looked down, a snarl on his face as he shook me off, moving away so I couldn't get to him.

“Please” I whispered out, my voice broken and hoarse.

“My parents never loved me and I never loved them, why would you love me and why would I love you back?” Soobin hissed, his eyes bloodshot.

His eyes shot to lock with mine, looking for an answer.

I had no answer. I was lying with every word I said and he had just inferred that he had never truly loved me. We had both lied.

“It will be you and me, always and forever. Is that what you think?” Soobin asked coldly, avoiding my gaze.

“It can be I- we can pretend this never happened” I spluttered as I rushed my words out. I want to live.

Soobin walked over to me, crouching down to my level before staring into my eyes. He looked at me as if I were nothing, whom he once loved suddenly nothing to him.

“Don't worry, all the pain, the suffering, it will all come to an end because…” Soobin began as he rested the knife against my chest with no force as if he had given up. He sounded as if he had calmed down, like he would listen to me, believe me, forget all of this happened and let me live.

My pain lightened, hope flowing through my veins.

“I don't need you anymore” Soobin finished, pushing the knife he once held limply through my heart, a tearing pain exploding over my skin.

My eyes teared up, going foggy as piercing pain seethed through my body.

“F-forget-” I whispered, feeling my mouth pool with the metallic taste of blood.

“Forget what?” Soobin hissed harshly as he pressed my body into the floor, the cuts and stabs bleeding profusely under the pressure.

“Forget the lies I told you earlier” I choked out.

He looked at me with piercing eyes, dragging the knife from my body slowly and letting it drop to the floor.

“Your lies are nothing compared to mine” Soobin smiled creepily.

“I don't love you. I won't die with you thinking you won. I lied” I choked out quietly.

For a second he showed no reaction, no care for what I had said. In that moment there was peace. The peace I had always wanted but it didn't last. His face flared up with anger, his hands gripping at the sides of my neck.

“I will always win” Soobin hissed, gripping harder as blood spilled from my chest.

My face burned up as his icy hands stopped me breathing. I didn't fight him, there was no use. I knew what was happening to me. That was when I decided to give up. This would be where I met my end in the hands of the one I had loved the most.

“You useless waste of space. I wasted so much of my time on you, don't you see how selfish you were? Making me love you for no reason? Did you need me that much? This will always be your fault. All of this because of you” Soobin snapped, his final words of manipulation head by my ears.

He continued to speak but his voice muffled, his voice turning to white noise as I felt my eyes struggling to say open.

The world seemed to have finally come to a stop after so much struggle. By now I was glad that he had brought me to my end, I wouldn't be able to live being the one to blame for everything he's done even if it wasn't anything I could control.