Talking to myself- YeonBin

Chapter 25- But its you, you're the one that I want

2 WEEKS LATER AT YEONJUN'S HOUSE
AUTHOR POV

Back with Yeonjun and Soobin things were getting better. Soobin was feeling more like himself again and Yeonjun, well, he was just plain old Yeonjun. It had been two weeks since the whole death situation. Soobin and Yeonjun weren't overly bothered by it though. They lived life together every second. Yeonjun was still convinced that Soobin was bothered, even by the slightest bit, and thus refused to let him leave his sight.

They spent everyday together, every meal they ate together, when one left the house the other would leave alongside them, when they slept they were in the same room. Yeonjun was obsessed with keeping his Soobin safe but who could blame him.

They had gotten slightly snappy with eachother on a couple of various occasions but only over one topic. Who they like. Since that conversation a couple of weeks ago, both of them have been paranoid that it wouldn't be them. Soobin was worried that Yeonjun was going to go for someone other than him and Yeonjun, let's just say even though he wasn't 100% sure about his feelings felt jealousy rising in his stomach whenever that person was mentioned. If only they knew the truth.

YEONJUN POV-

I sat in my room. This is the first time I felt this way. Soobin had fallen asleep on the couch and normally I would stay with him but today I feel like I need some time to think. Alone.

I Laid flat down on my bead, staring at my white ceiling. Memories of the past week flooded my mind

FLASHBACK (contains more than one day)

"Soobin you've got ice cream on your nose" I laughed to which he pouted back. "GET IT OFF OF ME" he whined loudly. Thank god we were only in the living room, this would be a mess in public. He smiled warmly as I wiped his face, making sure to be extra careful. "Thankyou Yeonjunnieeeee" he smiled. My heart is pounding.

"YEONJUN" Soobin yelled from the top of the stairs. "Yes?" I asked, sticking my head around the corner to see my Soobin stood with a face like absolute thunder. What got to him? "There's a spider COME AND GET IT" he yelled as he ran down at me, throwing himself through the door and out of my side. I smiled happily and yet again, my heart is pounding.

"Soobin?" I asked as I saw him staring into the distance. "Yes?" he responded in a confused tone. "Whatcha thinkin about?" I asked. "Him" Soobin simply stated. "He's all you ever think about. What about me?" I questioned, a break forming in my heart. "Yeonjun, I do think about you," Soobin snapped back. "You only think about him though, whenever I ask you it's always him" I argued, feeling my eyes tear up. "Yeonjun, you need to calm down, I promise I do think about you. I'll give you some alone time, it seems like you need it" Soobin suggested as he stood up to leave the room. I could tell that I had bothered him. Made him feel bad. But still, my heart was pounding.

END OF FLASHBACKS

I smiled fondly at my first two memories but again grimaced at remembering how harsh I was on him. It's not fair that he gets this kind of treatment just because I'm too scared to say anything.

I propped myself up to think. What if I told him? Thinking about all the jealousy I feel whenever he mentions anyone else in a romantic way, the good memories, all the fun times over the past couple of weeks, there is no way I don't feel something for him. He makes my heart beat, he makes me smile. I really think I love him.

What's the worst that could happen? He could hate me, he could leave, rejection but on the other hand he could love me, give me all the attention, never talk about HIM again. I just want to know who this person is. Whoever they are, they are lucky to have caught his eye but I don't want it to stay that way.