Talking to myself- YeonBin

Chapter 32- Talk

THE SAME DAY
KAI POV

I heard another deafening shout before I heard the door slam. I don't know exactly what's going on down there but judging by the silence they all left.

Soobin had definitely been yelling but the thick walls and floors that divided us muffled all the conversations so that I couldn't hear.

It wasnt nice hearing him yell. He sounded distressed. What's more concerning is who he was yelling at. I'd hope it's not Yeonjun, that wouldn't do their relationship any good but I'd also hope that it's not the other two, that would just hurt me more.

The longer I wondered about the yelling the less I paid attention to what was going on around me. That was until my stomach rumbled rather suddenly. When I checked the time it made sense, normally I would have eaten by now and seeing as everyones gone I may as well go get something to eat now while I can.

Maybe the others arguing didn't have all bad consequences. At least not to me.

I left my room swiftly, running slightly down the stairs until I reached the hallway. So far there has been no noise. I am truly alone. Excitement bubbled up inside me as I realised that I could be free in my own house for a while.

Thinking of all the things I could do brought a smile to my face.

I could watch a movie.

I could eat what I wanted.

And all without worrying about being seen.

I opened the door to the living room but there was something wrong.

There sat 3 people.

Yeonjun.

Taehyun.

Beomgyu.

I hadn't been alone, not even for a second. Their eyes widened as they stared up at me before Beomgyu lurched forward towards me in an instant. I backed away, yanking my sleeves down over my scarred arms in an attempt to hide away.

"STAY AWAY" I yelled, stopping Beomgyu in his tracks with tears of panic flooding his eyes. I didn't want to yell, but I had to. "Please...stay over there...don't come near me" I stuttered out through rushed breathing. The other 2 were still sitting in their seats, completely speechless as they watched what was going on.

"Kai we need to talk to you" Beomgyu croaked out through a sob. It was nice seeing them but I don't want to talk. Not now.

"I don't want to talk right now" I replied rather coldly to get my point across. "Whatever you say Kai but please start coming into school. None of us will bother you, just go in, you need to get good grades" Taehyun begged, joining Beomgyu on the floor with pleading eyes.

Throughout this whole interaction Yeonjun had seemed to be in his own little world. I'm not going to bother him but now at least I know who the argument was between. Judging by Soobin's lack of presence and the shouts I heard earlier it was in fact a Soobin vs Yeonjun fight. I feel bad for the pair being all new in their relationship and all but I don't have time for that right now.

I paid no mind to speaking more, turning to leave the room instantly but I was stopped by another voice. "When will you want to talk?". It was Yeonjun. Finally he said something, but not when I wanted to hear it. I didn't have a response.

How was I supposed to know?

Do they think I can just magically know when I want to come out of my room after all this time?

Well newsflash, I can't.

"Uhhh, tomorrow...yeah..tomorrow" I lied through gritted teeth before leaving, the door slamming heavily behind me. I ran for the stairs, paying no mind to my hunger anymore, that isn't relevant anymore.

I slammed myself in my room, locking the door in an instant. Too much had just happened. Way too much. I didn't have it in me anymore to think of anything apart from Tae and Gyu. when I yelled they looked so hurt, dare I say they looked afraid of me. I didn't mean to come off so aggressive. Having just been yelled at by Soobin they must have already been shaken enough.

Thinking back to their broken little faces made my heart shatter. I didn't think I was paining them as much as I was. I thought they would be glad that I'm leaving them alone, but it seems to be wrong. I had never seen Taehyun broken that way for anything and the only time I had seen Beomgyu in tears like that was when Yeonjun told him that he only had mint chocolate ice cream left.

We don't talk about that.

I had been so caught up in thinking that I didn't realise it was getting later and later until I looked towards my window to see it was pitch black outside. Shit. if they want me at school I've got to sleep.

And just like that I fell asleep feeling quite iffy about the day ahead. All I know is one thing.

I will NOT be talking to them tomorrow.

After today I know I need too soon but tomorrow is just TOO soon.

A/N- Finally some Kai progress, dont worry its all part of my totally figured out plot. Yeah seriously I know exactly how this will play out I just need to write it for you but hopefully it wont be too long until I give you all the next chapter.

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~Author C