Pumped-Up Kicks 2

1.8

Telly
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Logan didn't keep his promise to go with me to Moose's party. I was being ushered to my emotional doom by Remie and Jase. They were talking away as if I wasn't there. I was happy for them, that they had found a way back to each other again. I guess I'm just down in the dumps because of Mason. I examined the way they held each others hand. Like they never wanted to let go.

Remie looked at Jase like he was her whole everything. Like he was her light in the dark. I smiled and my heart swelled at their romance. It was sweet and they were taking it slow. It was our job to pick up Moose for his party that he didn't know about. So I was dressed in normal clothes and not the dress that Remie and I bought. "You okay back there kid?" Remie asked me and Jase glanced back in the drivers mirror.

"I'll be okay." I was completely and utterly terrified of my nervousness. Mason was still mad at me no doubt about that. The wound that he left was still raw and fresh but I had to be selfless. It was his birthday and he was turning 19. Tonight shouldn't be about me and my behavior. It shouldn't be about how I feel. It was about Moose.

"Lies." Jase said after a pause of silence.

"Excuse me?" He pulled his lip ring between his teeth.

"We can see right through you. Telly, you're beyond nervous. Did you think we forgot?"

"No. I'm trying to forget what I feel. It's his birthday and I have to be selfless." I clutched the necklace he gave me in my hand. It was one of the first times that it wasn't around my neck besides when I ripped it off. I was glad to see that the chain wasn't broken. I twisted and turned it around in my palm and ran my fingers over the smooth heart. I looked at the silver side reading the message. "you'll be mine and i'll be yours. Love, Mason."

I took a deep breath as my heart swelled. I had already forgiven him for his selfishness. In all actuality, it was my fault. I had pushed him too far. I didn't want to drive him away because I'm not used to this treatment. My breath hitched in my throat as we got to his house. "Remember to breath Telly." Remie reminded me. "Everything is going to be okay."

"Don't sweat it." Jase gave me a reassuring smile. I took a deep breath and nodded finally getting out.

I walked up to his front door and knocked twice. Hopefully he would answer and want to talk to me. Mindy opened the door and stared at me in disgust. "Hey Mindy. Umm. Is Mason home?" I glanced behind my shoulder seeing his car in the driveway. Remie gave me two thumbs up.

"Yeah. He's in his room." She opened the door for me to step into the house and closed it behind me. "Why are you here?" She crossed her arms over her chest and my patience was wearing thin.

"I need to talk to him." I pinched myself trying my hardest to be polite.

"He told me to tell you that he has nothing to say."

"That's okay. He doesn't have to say anything. I just need to talk to him."

"You could've called him."

"Yeah I know. I needed to see him in person." There wasn't any reason as to why I was arguing with the stubborn girl. She reminded me of myself.

"You really hurt him."

"Yeah I know." I repeated again and took a deep breath. "That's why I'm here. To apologize." I fidgeted with the necklace in my hands hoping to be done with this encounter. "I won't take long." I turned toward the stairs and took them slowly dreading to see his anger. I followed the sweet soothing sound of his guitar. I walked closer and closer to his room. The door was open enough for me to slip through. I knocked twice dragging him out of his trance. "Can I come in?"

"Sure." He didn't look up at me but instead at his song book.

"I umm... I came to apologize." I walked in entirely but stopped when I was at the middle of the room. "I admit that I was being stupid and selfish. It was all my fault. And I'm sorry." I looked down at my feet in shame. "I understand if you're still pissed at me. You have every right to be mad at me. And Mindy told me that you didn't have anything to say to me. Which that's okay." I walked closer and sat down next to him.

He kept his gaze at the floor and I wanted desperately to look into his eyes. "I'm sorry Moose." I brought his hand up to my lips and kissed him softly. He shrugged me off and looked to the open door. "Don't be this way. Please."

"No I have to be this way. I'm losing myself day after day. I don't know what's happening to me. When did I stop being me?" He looked at me with glassy eyes. They threatened to spill over with tears. "I completely lost it the other day. I don't know what happened. You shouldn't be asking for forgiveness. It should be me."

"No. Don't blame yourself. I pushed you to that place so I take responsibility for it. I'm sorry for, that." I cringed at the thought. He took a deep breath and calmed himself down. Then he smiled. "Can you help me with something?"

"What?" I opened my hand revealing the sacred necklace that started to sweat from the heat in my hand. "Are we okay?" He stared at the charm. I nodded and pushed my hair to the side as he took the silver into his fingers. I felt him put it around my neck like the first time. "I'm sorry baby." He pressed his forehead into my skin.

"Happy Birthday. I wanna take you somewhere." He looked at me with his eyebrows knitted.

"Where are we going?"

"On an adventure."

(Sorry that this is sooo late but yeah Melly reuniting. Oh guess what freaks? Sunday is my birthday yay! I might update 1983 just because. Okay love all you sexy human beings. Later.xxx.)