Pumped-Up Kicks 2

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Telly
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I was out of breath as I ran up Remie's spiral staircase two at a time. She pulled me by the arm forcefully and practically threw me into her room. "Thank God you're here Telly. I have something important to tell you and you have to swear on your grave that you won't tell another living soul and that counts Moose." She rested a hand on her hip as I blushed.

"It can't be that bad." I rolled my eyes at her serious ridiculousness.

"Telly are you blind. I'm a complete fucking mess and you mean to tell me that it can't be that bad." She was right about her being a mess. Her cheeks were stained with streaks of dry black eyeliner and her eyes were puffy. She was right about listening to the sad songs and her room smelled like an Abercrombie store. She was wearing clothes too big for her and too mannish.

"Why are you wearing Jared's clothes?"

"I just need you to be open minded can you do that?" She bit her lip desperately. I nodded slowly. "Okay so as you know J and I are family. But we didn't know until the end of Sophmore year."

"Okay," I wasn't sure where this was going but it couldn't be good.

"Anyway him and I didn't know it at the time so we were together." My jaw dropped to the floor.

"Wait what. Okay explain everything as simple as possible."

"Oh my god Telly you're stupid. Jared and I used to be boyfriend and girlfriend when we were Fresh mans and he took my virginity in Sophomore year." She rushed out then slapped a hand over her lips. I followed her actions.

"Are you kidding me? Why didn't you tell me before?" I rose my voice clearly angry with her.

"Because I didn't know how well you would have handled the fact that your dead ex boyfriend and your best friend committed incest." She yelled back.

"Why did you wait until he was in the grave to tell me your dirty little secret." I pulled my hair from the roots in frustration in disbelief.

"To save him of embarrassment."

"Embarrassment of what?"

"Because if you knew that your boyfriend and best friend fucked around when he was still alive you would have went apeshit and you wouldn't want him touching you ever. He's gone now and we can't change anything. We had sex. We didn't know. When we found out I immediately regretted it. I didn't talk to him for a full 3 months. If he were here and you asked him he would say that everything I'm saying is true."

"Why did you feel like you have to keep this a secret from me?"

"Because I'm ashamed of what I did. I'm so ashamed to the point where I'm having breakdowns every few hours. The guilt is gnawing away at me."

"Three can keep a secret if two of them is dead."

"Yeah and I'm slowly dying."

"But Remie you can't die. Look I understand now. I get it. You didn't know what you got yourself into and you are so embarrassed. It's okay."

"No. It's not okay. Telly I can't function properly anymore without him because even though I feel so terrible." She paused taking a deep breath about to confess one of her deepest darkest secrets. "I loved him Tell."

"Why are you telling me this now?" Tears pricked my eyes and I had to pinch myself so I wouldn't cry. She is confessing to loving Jared begin my back. My voice cracked.

"Because you deserve to know why you guys weren't active until last Thanksgiving."

"It was because he was getting the sex from my sister and Alyssa." She lowered her head and silently cried to herself. "Remie."