Pumped-Up Kicks 2

2.1

Logan (oh thats different)
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I didn't know that a guy could feel like a cheating slut. And I never thought I would experience that feeling. That was until I noticed Telly and Remie and Jase were watching me and Jessa hardcore make out. Telly's cheeks were pink as she shifted from leg to leg. Remie looked completely horrified and awkward. Jase didn't seem to care. "Oh um, hey guys." I offered a half assed wave. I saw the corners of Jessa's mouth turn into a small smile her lips still swollen and sinfully pink.

"Yeah hey guys." She rested her elbow on my shoulder casually as if we weren't just making out 10 seconds ago.

And I honestly don't know what this makes us now. We fucked a few times and now she's making out with me. Does that mean we're together? And if we are, how does Telly feel about that? She's fucking crushed. My subconscious taunted me. "Are you guys going out?" She choked out innocently. I saw her bite her lip and that could only mean one thing. She really really hoped that Jessa and I weren't a couple.

I honestly couldn't speak. I could practically feel her pleading to let it not be true. And as I watched Telly bite her lip and wait anxiously, the more I felt like a cheating slut. Like I betrayed her. Jessa shook her head no and I was even more confused. "Oh. Okay." I saw her shake her head even though she was as confused as I was. She checked her phone screen probably so she could stop staring at me.

Her cheeks were still as pink as Jessa's miniskirt. "Telly when is Moose getting here?" Jase asked her while he still glared at Jessa. Remie squeezed his shoulder bringing him from his stare. He was probably thinking of all the ways he would kill Jessa. Or me. Or the both of us.

"Uhh, I'm not sure. But the movie is starting in 5 minutes. So we should probably go in there." She trailed off suggesting that we all pulled our heads out of our asses and started to walk before we got hit by a car. I saw that she was standing on the other wide of Jase making sure to be far away from me. I frowned and looked at the ground.

There was practically no hope for us anymore because of Jessa. And I guess there isn't anymore hope for us because of her boyfriend too. We're both guilty in this case.

I couldn't give up though. There may still be a possibility, a small one, that we could try and end up together. That all I really want. And I don't mean date for a few months and then get bored then go our separate ways. I want a real love story with her. I want to grow old with Telly. I want to marry her. I don't want to be a damn screw up anymore.

I highly doubted it was possible. Telly's head is full of bullshit ideas because Jessa's tongue was down my throat. I had to do something, anything. Everything.
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Telly (here we go)

I made sure to sit on the opposite end of Logan. Jess,Rem,and Jase sat in between us and I silently prayed for Mason to hurry up and get here. Honestly I don't know what I was thinking. But that's the thing. I wasn't thinking about Jessa and Logan ending up together. I mean all the evidence was right there in my face.

Yeah she answered that they weren't dating but I can't know that for sure. Jessa is a mischievous girl who knows how to manipulate. I couldn't ignore the wave of relief that washed over me when she said no, but then it was replaced with confusion.

Are they just friends with benefits? Has Logan really gone that low on the totem pole? Is he embarrassed to say yes he's in a relationship with a girl like Jessa? Was she just sparing my feelings? Is this her way of revenge?

It had to be. I knew that Jessa was jealous of mine and Jase's friendship but I didn't know that she was this low. Jase was right. She is evil.

I guess it is both mine and Logan's fault. He was tired of waiting, he told me that. I've rejected him so many times. He probably thinks that I want absolutely nothing to do with him ever again. But that's not true. He needed someone to be with. He was tired of being unhappy. So I guess he moved on.

And to be honest I feel kind of bad for him. Jessa is a bad girl and he knows it. She's only here to cause trouble. As Jase puts it, she's walking time bomb just waiting to go off. And when she does she will devastate anyone or anything in her path. She's a dangerous girl and our whole web of friends knows it.

I wouldn't blame Logan for trying to find solid ground but I truly think that this "relationship" is based off infatuation. Anyone would be blind to say that Jessa isn't pretty. Hell, she's your typical Southern California blonde. And they look good together.

Her skin is practically flawless. Her hair is long and soft and doesn't have a trace of brown in it. Her green eyes are laced with gold. She's practically the epitome of perfect. Her features contrast great with Logan's.

But ours are the same. Same colour hair. Same colour eyes. People could mistake is for twins. Or brother and sister.

But physical appearances don't mean anything. It's what's inside that counts. And I know one thing. It's that I love Logan with all my mind, body, and soul. He might not feel the same way anymore but I am praying for a miracle. For some slight possibility, that we could end up being together.

(Oh hey kids. How is everyone? Are you doing all right? Oh that's wonderful. So I decided to update for you guys and I'm really happy about that.

I want to tell all of you beautiful freaks something. You are all cute, beautiful sexy people and anyone who can't see that is obviously blind. If you don't think it, then I do. I know some of you are probably going through some tough times myself included. But I know one thing. God gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. We are all fighters. It can't rain forever. I promise all of you, that it will get better.

Love Always,
Telly. xxx.)