Pumped-Up Kicks 2

3.6

Logan (hey there)
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"Logan may I ask what this is?"

"Obviously it's a stakeout... Again."

"And who exactly are we staking out?"

"Telly." I breathed out and gripped the steering wheel tighter. Jessa sat to my left and I noticed how red her cheeks had gotten. I knew it was definitely hard for her to do this, stalk the girl she raped, only to apologize. And in all actuality this was a very bad plan. But we had no other options that didn't involve Remie and/or Jase being in the same general area as us for more than 15 minutes.

"Does she hate me?" She looked out the windshield and took a deep breath waiting for our mission to start.

"I don't think she hates you. But she definitely doesn't trust you anymore. She might dislike you as well because of our history and because well, you raped her."

"Yeah I know that L. You don't have to remind me that I hurt my supposed to be friend."

"So why did you do it if you knew it was wrong."

"I dunno. Because I'm a bad person and I'm jealous and stupid. Seriously both Remie and Jase have lectured me and made me feel like complete shit enough. I don't need you to as well. 90% of the time I feel like shit anyway. If there's one time I don't want to feel bad about myself it would be with you."

I felt my cheeks heat up which was weird because I didn't know that guys could blush but I guess I'll take that compliment. "You aren't the only one that feels like shit all the time." I looked out the windshield as well and then down to my lap. It started to rain down slowly. Which was actually typical. You didn't need to check the weather in the gloomy state of Washington. It always rained. It never changes.

"Who's car is this?" Jess crinkled her nose and sunk down into the black car seat. It still had that new car smell mixed with a bit of Abercrombie's signature scent. I smiled because Telly said it smelled like hot guys.

"It's uh, well he's not an old friend of mine but an ex boyfriend and brother of a friend. It's his car."

"The guy you killed?"

"Uh yeah. It's his car."

"So wait you're driving a dead guys car?"

"Well technically because he's dead it's not even his car anymore. I guess it would be Telly's." I shrugged and scanned the parking lot looking at the back of her blue car.

"Did she buy it for him?"

"Yeah. Silly girl."

"Why would she buy the dead guy a car."

"Because obviously at the time he was very alive. And maybe he was her boyfriend." I took a deep breath and broke eye contact with her looking to my lap in shame.

"You killed him because you were jealous." Her voice got caught in her throat as she hung onto the last word.

"I was in love. I still am."

"You were jealous." Jess repeated. "And you were getting on my case for assaulting Telly. But you, Logan, you killed someone. He isn't coming back."

"I know that Jessa! Don't you think I know that! I know that Jared isn't coming back because of my extreme jealousy. You don't have to remind me. I wake up everyday and I think of Telly and Remie and think of all the pain I've caused the both of them. I can't even look at Rem without her biting my head off reminding me that I stole her brother from her. And think about Telly. Yeah she didn't love him anymore but that hurts my chances with her in the end."