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Phonophobia-fear of being yelled at/ loud noises ( a little raise in your voice would trigger their phobia),very dangerous which could lead to suicide can change into a menacing fear of people or certain person.It will control you faster than any phobia.

-Namjoon pov-

"Namjoon can you can stop doing it!" he yelled causing me to flinch a little, "What?" I asked."I said stop tapping your fucking feet!" he yelled again, doesn't he knows that it's my usual habit what's wrong with him? He is the one who is came home late after his duty and I didn't even question him about it and why the hell is he fucking yelling on me.I stopped my actions and continued to watch my movie, but the mid way through the movie I got hungry so I rose up from my seat and filled up a bowl with my favourite potato chips and returned back.I walked towards jin who was sitting across me and offered the bowl.

"Did I fucking ask you for the chips?" he said interfering me even more, after a glare I sat beside him understanding that he might've had a bad day I slowly wrapped my hands around him."WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" he yelled."Im hugging you jin.." I asked bewildered."DID I ASKED YOU TO TOUCH ME" there he started to yell again."Am I am not allowed to do that jinnie?" I spoke with a lump in my throat."STOP FUCKING CRYING NAMJOON, ITS SO ANNOYING!" he yelled and held his head in his hands.I rose up from my seat and grabbed my coat in my hands,"Where are you going?" he asked with a stoic face."W-walk" I whispered and walked out of the house to clear my mind.

I held my coat tightly and gritted myself from crying out loudly for which I miserably failed, choked sobs escaped my trembling lips.My whole body was shaking in fear.I tried to calm myself down by taking deep breaths and reminding myself about happy events or scenarios."Shh namjoon shh shh" I reassured myself and hugged myself tighter. I ended up stopping at a lake, it was a few blocks away from our house.I sat on the lake and stared at the sunset. 'Your so annoying' his words stabbed into my already wooden heart again and again which lead up to me ended up crying again.

-Jin pov-

I had an instant regret as soon as he left the house, I shouldn't have poured my anger and stress on him.I glance at the clock and got worried, it was late and namjoon wasn't still home yet.He might've be at Jimin's I thought to myself and went to my bed knowing that he would still be mad on me.I jerked up a little when I heard our bedroom's door open to reveal noone other than namjoon.I shut my eyelids and acted as if I am sleeping hoping that he would lay beside me and we could solve it by cuddles and kisses but when I heard the door shut again, I peeked up to see namjoon long gone.His blanket and pillows were missing.I walked to downstairs to see namjoon curled up in a ball on the couch shaking lightly.

"Baby" I yelled and ran to him, "N-no no p-please p-please s-sorry s-sorry s-sorry" he begged me and backed away from me."Baby?" I aksed but he flinched even at the soft tone and started to shake even more, I didn't know what to do he didn't let me come near him either."Hello hoba, come here faster" I said through my call.Namjoon didn't even let me sit beside him, he kept pleading and begging at me.I rushed to open the front door when I heard the door being knocked."Jin are you are okay? Namjoon?" he asked visibly panicking, he had already brought his emergency kit along with him.

"Joon hobi.I don't know" I said.We rushed towards namjoon again, when hobi was about to touch him he flinched and started to plead again."W-what's happening hoba?" I asked baffled."Did you yelled or hit him? Any arguments or loud sounds?" he asked."I y-yelled..." I admitted."He has phonophobia jin, fear of being yelled at and loud noises" he said, I mewled hardly in guilt."H-he is shaking and doesn't lets me near him..not even you how to fix it?" "A dose would do it..he is having a panic attack and is scared that someone will hit or yell at him" he said crouched down to namjoon.

"Shhh joonie shhhh okay okay, let's give you a dose and everything will be already joonie shhhh" he coaxed and pulled out his injection namjoon was too into his panic attack to notice anything, he only let out a yelp when hobi injected the dose it his arms.After a few seconds, he fell asleep on the couch."Why did you yell at him?" hobi asked turning to me."Sorry.my fault I didn't know about his phobia" I whispered."Looks like he doesn't knows it too...but if he has this panic attack again means encourage him to sleep and try to calm him down and most importantly don't trigger his phobia" he said and left.

I lift up namjoon and laid him on the bed softly, "Sorry love, I didn't mean to....I love you" I whispered and pecked his lips and puffy eyelids.I fell asleep by cuddling him.

*Time skip*

I woke up next to an empty space which caused me to roam the house but he was nowhere to be found but sure enough his coat wasn't there neither his pair of shoes.Sighing, I went into the shower thinking about how to make up with him again and proof him that I am really sorry.

*Namjoon pov*

I had phonophobia ? I don't even know what does that means but when I saw jin next to me in the morning a dreading fear crawled into my senses which lead me to the same lake today.I felt a lot more calmer here by looking at the natural view and hearing the bird's chirps.I glance at my phone 10 missed calls and 20 texts all from jin.I scrolled through his texts to be met with lump of apologies and questions about where am I, but I want to forgive him too but I couldn't even see him.Its most likely,im scared of my own boyfriend.

I returned home during lunch time knowing that seokjin must've left to his work and my assumptions weren't wrong he indeed left to work after making me food along with a note.

Baby im sorry, I know what I did was wrong let me make it up to you.Let's talk tonight get ready let's go to theatre.I love you, love. sorry.

*Timeskip*

*Jin pov*

I returned home highly strung and roamed for namjoon holding the two tickets I bought for us, I let a audible gasp when I saw him sleeping on my bed.I walked towards him and stir him lightly it was easy for me to know that he was acting."I-I d-don't wanna g-go please, I w-want to sleep" he said covering himself with his blanket head to toe."Namjoon we cant be like this forever...we need to resolve it or else our relationship will slowly fall apart" I whispered.He was shaking again but he muttered a strong 'I don't want to come with you', which caused my anger to burst.I threw his blanket across the room and pulled him by his collar.

"Stop it namjoon! I am trying to make up with you and youre sleeping like a pig! Wake up! I want you to be downstairs in ten minutes NOW!" I yelled and let him go.

-Namjoon pov-

"H-hoba c-come home faster I-im s-scared s-seokjin will h-hit me f-faster hoba I d-don't-" "Shh im here"he said.

-Jin pov-

"I said that don't yell at him jin didn't I?!" hobi yelled yanking my collar as soon as I opened the door."He isn't giving in hobi! I tried to make up with him by bringing him out but he wants to fucking sleep!" I defended back."You know what's his phobia now? It isn't sound anymore its you jin! Your his phobia and he is fucking scared of you!" he yelled."M-me?" I asked mewling."Yes you! He is scared if you will hit him, right now he called me saying that you're about to hit him and he is fucking scared! Do you understand jin? Stop being tough...if you cant means just leave him his phobia is bigger than a heartbreak so just leave him, it would be better for you and him" he said."N-no n-no im sorry...sorry hoba I l-lost my patience" I apologized.

"But you shouldn't have yelled at him! " he sighed, "Okay come with me but keep a distance with him" he said for which I nodded.We rushed upstairs, "SHIT NAMJOON DROP IT!" he yelled snatching away the razor from a trembling namjoon, I slumped on the floor knowing that I am the cause of it.He was trembling not even given a glance at me.

"I-I w-will...I'll leave him" I muttered.It hurt, hurt like hell but knowing that i'm the cause of this is the worst feeling ever."You w-wanna come with me joonie?" hoseok asked with a hesitant.I shut my eyes tightly and buried my face in my knees in fear,hurt,desperation.

"P-please b-bring me o-out of here I-im s-scared"