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69 (Part 2 of chap 24)

*Jin pov*

"B-but namjoon I-" "Your wasting your time jin, us is terminated its your own fault...but I wont interfere your relationship with Jungkook and you can see him whenever you want" he muttered and rose up from the seat. I pursed my lips, cause I deserve this and I cant just expect him to run into my arms like nothing happened between us. "J-Jungkook has to go, we have to go" he muttered dodging my eyes.I let out a soft hum and stood up from my haunching position with Jungkook in my arms. "Bye.." I whispered to Jungkook who was totally clueless about this whole situation, "Bye dada" he muttered and pecked my cheeks causing a small smile to graze on my lips.

I handed Jungkook to namjoon softy, namjoon looked ever so beautiful...he always did, but now he looked ethereal for me making me question why did I even try to move on from him, what made me to do? He was my everything once...still is but what made me fall into infidelity. Our orbs met for a brief second, he dodged it and walked past me, but his footsteps stopped. I turned around to see him standing on his place with me facing his back, a little distance in between us. "D-did I ever stan a chance..?" he whispered, my heart shattered at that. "Y-you did..." I whispered back, I could already tell that he is crying even if its only his back facing me, "O-once?" he quivered, "N-no....it was o-only you"

"T-then you wouldn't have laid a-a finger on hoseok jin, I-if it is always about us means than you wouldn't do that..." this made me mewl harder. "You were ready to leave me for him...like I was nothing, we were nothing.." he whispered, I took to scurry steps near him. "D-don't! D-don't touch me...i'm weak jin, my heart is fragile and blind w-when its for you...t-trust me I was doing fine until you waltz into my life again like..you realy didn't broke my heart" he whispered, I was already extending my hand to touch his shoulder but I fisted it and pursed it near my thigh. "S-sorry it was an a-accident my mistake.." I whispered.

"I-its not a mistake jin, infidelity isn't a mistake but a-a choice...you could've stopped it before doing it but did you?"

"I d-didn't" a chocked sob escaped his lips. "A-appa?" Jungkook called namjoon who pressed Jungkook's head into his shoulder deeper.

"I-It wasn't mean to go this f-far I swear.."

"I trusted you....and I blamed myself f-for doubting you"

"W-we can fix us namjoon, please"

"There is n-no us. Not anymore..." I stayed silent at that, my tongue died down as millions of emotions swirls in my mind and all of them being guilt hurt pain love.

"Y-you don't know how it feels to see the person w-who you love the most slowly fall o-out of love with you when y-your life is all about them..., I a-almost died...I am not even lying, I almost jumped off from buildings or slit my wrist b-but I had Jungkook, the one we created when we were a-actually in love"

"Jin" he called for which I let out a shaky hum, "C-can you can tell me a t-truth please...please don't lie it will break me further" he whispered. "Y-yes" I muttered.

"H-how long..H-how long was it happening?" at that my body went stiff, my lips sealed in terror.

"T-two years.."

With that he left, as soon as those words slipped out of my lips he left the office in a hast.

"I w-will win you back joonie...my love, I am s-so sorry" I whispered and walked out of the school.

*Joon pov*

After putting Jungkook to sleep, I fell on my bed feeling numb. Two years...two years of my life I have been making a fool of myself by living with someone who doesn't loved me like the way I loved him. The fact that it was the two years when I was living with him, who knows what happened when I left? I couldn't even sleep, I chugged down two sleeping pills and shut my eyes as more tears rolled down my cheeks, I hated how I still love him, I hated how I spent all these years to forget him but the second he showed up my life made a flip, I hated how fragile my heart was for him and I hated myself for still seeking for him, to hide myself in his embrace which feels like home. My eyelids grew heavier dragging me to the familiar abyss but I hated how...its him who showed up in my dreams, how I dream about our past.