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I recommend y'll to listen 'don't' while reading this, idk just give it a try maybe?

(don't bgm would work too)

*Joon pov*

He touches me, but I shudder trying to wriggle out of it.Everytime he looks into my eyes with pure love, I feel like I want to scream and push him away from me.He doesn't deserve a slut like me, he don't...

"Babyyy" he chirped and hugged me by my waist, every time he does this I feel like someone is stabbing into my heart.The guilt, the scenes.."J-jin move" I muttered and walked upstairs, he stared at me with his misty eyes.Its been a whole month but still I couldn't get it out of my head.The guilt kills me every day, anxiety,sorrow , remorse swirls in my mind every single time I see him, I am not expecting to be forgiven but I need to get this weight out of my chest, I needed to.

I wiped off my harshly and stomped downstairs, my legs became wobbly as I saw him crying onto his palms, and now I am going to break his heart further but I cant harbour it forever.I need to transpire my infidelity to him.Gritting my teeth and helding my breath, I walked to him.As soon as he heard my footsteps, he wiped off his tears and put on a forged smile on his lips, these....these made me sick everyday knowing what I just did to him.

"Baby you need-" "Jin I cheated on you." I said tersely, his mouth agapes.His eyes filled with tears, teeth chatters.I fisted my fists and look dead into his orbs, "I cheated on you jin" I repeated, he shakes his head vigorously, and pulled me into his embrace.It burns...it burns when he touches me because of my undying guilt."No no baby" he wailed and cried into my chest, I held my hands behind my back forcefully not to soothe him,"Yes I did, I cheated on you" I admitted.He slowly part away and caressed my cheeks, I yanked his hands away and pushed him away from me.

"I c-cheated on you jin! Go!" I yelled tremoring, "Y-your lying" he whispered."I AM PREGNANT WITH YOONGI'S CHILD!" I shrieked, he stumbled back and fell on the couch.I wish...I wish that I could go to the past and mend my mistakes but its too late."N-no" he whispered, "Fuck jin I am admitting to you!" I yelled and threw the positive pregnancy test towards him."I-it could be m-mine too" he whispered with hope.

"HELL JIN I-ITS NOT YOURS BUT HIS, I SLEPT WITH HIM LAST MONTH AND I FOUND OUT THIS...t-this month and w-we didn't have sex f-for the last three months...a-and the doctor s-said that I am a month pregnant" I whispered, his tears damped the couch."P-please I w-will take care p-please d-don't leave me" he whimpered, it was funny how he was the one who is begging me to stay while the one who did blunder me is pushing him away.Only if me and yoongi wasn't drunk that day, this wouldn't happen this day wouldn't come.

"I am leaving and that's what I wanted to tell you" I said for which he hugged me tightly and hit my chest wailing 'please don't leave'.I pushed him away, and walked out of the house him running behind me."Go away jin we are done!" I snarled and pushed him away, "N-no baby please I c-cant leave without y-you please please" he sobbed barricading my way, I pushed him away and walked away.

"NAMJOON!"

It happened slow, painstakingly slow but ended too fast.Him pushing me away from the road and him getting hit by the car, happened too fast.My mind couldn't process nor admit what just happened but I ran towards him when I saw his bloody body on the ground."JIN!" I yelled and pulled him into my lap clutching his shirt."W-WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!" I yelled yanking his collar, my vision was blur I couldn't even seek for help.

"B-baby a-and you" he whispered."JIN NO NO W-WAKE UP!" I yelled hitting his chest, "L-love you so s-so much b-baby s-so s-so much" he whispered, his eyelids were threatening to shut down."E-even though h-he isn't mine d-daddy s-still loves you a-a lot baby....d-daddy w-will miss y-you" he whispered kissing my clothed flat belly, "N-no no! S-seokjin wake up y-your gonna be a-alright" I yelled gritting my teeth."P-please e-even if you d-don't love me anymore.....p-please give me a l-last goodbye kiss p-please" he whispered, I planted kissed all over his bloody face ignoring the blood which I tasted.

"L-love you and o-our baby so much....t-take c-care e-eat well, b-be happy t-that's o-our l-little j-jiminie in t-there o-okay?" he asked smiling despite the nerve wrecking situation, his breaths became uneven."B-baby I l-love you s-so much..." he muttered and kissed my forehead,"J-jin j-jin w-wake up SEOKJIN WAKE UP SEOKJIN!" I screamed in agony shaking stirring his body which fell on my lap."WAKE UP! SEOKJIN P-PLEASE S-SORRY w-wake up..." I whispered shaking his lifeless body.

"CUT!" cheers and claps filled the air, "That was amazing!" the director said patting my back I muttered him a small 'thanks' and turned to seokjin who was throwing daggers to me now, "Yah! You used the chance to hit me harder didn't you" seokjin snarled tackling me on the floor, "No..or maybe yes" I said giggling, he growled bite my cheeks causing me to pout, he smirked looking at my shirt, "HEY YOU RUINED MY WHITE SHIRT YOU!" I yelled chasing after my love.

An. *nervous laughs*

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