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65 (Part 2 of chap 58)

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"Hyung are you okay? You have been very down nowadays is there is something bothering you?" hoseok asked concerned. I stammered a little, "N-no I am fine" I muttered but unlike my calm body, my mind was clogged swirling with different assumptions but all of them being about something....a certain someone perhaps, I don't have an idea where is he, he just vanished away like that...without a single trance of him. I shouldn't worry but I couldn't help, it surprised me when I broke down on my office a week after his missing, he just vanished away like that.

I thought that it has something to do with his father but I was baffled when he called all of the mafias for a meeting, cause of his missing son. I don't know why am I worrying when I can just move on like that, like I don't care but I do...I do care for him but does the last conversation between us mean something to him? About the love? Maybe he went away with the person he loved? If that's true...I should be happy but I am not but I am feeling mad,betrayel and pain. Those cuddles, light pecks, bad days rants....those just haunts me like a demon. Like I was stuck into a labyrinth, running everywhere but not the exit but for god's sake its been a whole year...a whole year of me not seeing him, I didn't have sex, I don't know why but I just couldn't but trust me I tried, I tried by bringing one night stands to my home but when things started to heat up, his face....his face flashes through my mind and I just froze and stop everything.

I couldn't even run my mafia business properly, we had a massive bankrupt and massive attacks but what all I did was sit and watch everything fall apart, I don't even know why I was like that? Like I just lost...my everything.

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"Mmmm!" yoongi whined spitting out his pacifier, he has been nagging me to not go to work today cause he wants to "Pwease pa we cowor pwease!" yes that's right, he wants to colour, and I eventually gave in and smiled at him. "Give me a kiss" I muttered for which he immediately complied, with his gummy smile. "Okay let's colour" I muttered earning a loud squeal from him, lift him up in my arms and placed him in-between my legs with his back facing my chest and placed the new colouring book in front of him along with the new colour pencils I had bought for him yesterday.

"Ish kitty meow meow appa ish kitty meow meow yoonie" he said pointing at two circles, hummed and placed a kiss on top of his head. I let out a pleasant sigh as I inhaled his baby powder's scent. "I love you so much yoongi, appa don't want you to grow...I feel like I just had you in me and now look at you" I whispered as if he could understand my words, he was barely one but he was quite intelligent for this age as well.He started to colour the page aggressively causing it to rip apart, but that didn't stop him tho, my aggressive baby.

"Appa yoonie ish hab eomma?" he asked, my eyes went wide and my tongue died down. Who taught him these? I mean he will learn eventually but I didn't anticipate him to ask about that this early, "I am your eomma" I said pecking his head, he turned around and looked into my orbs. "Appa eomma?" he asked for which I hummed and snuggled up to his little tummy causing him to giggle softly, and play with my ebony locks. "Appa then daddy?" I froze. "Y-you don't have one..." I muttered, his lips parted into an 'o' shape at that. "Appa yoonie hungwy" he said pointing at his little bare belly, he was just only in his diaper since the weather was quite hot.

"Is this little tummy growling?" I giggled and bite his stomach softly causing him to throw a fit of giggles, "What does my yoonie wants to eat?" I asked for which he tapped on my cheeks instead of his. I took his tiny fist into my palm and kissed it softly. "Yoonie wan's fwuit, Minnie hyunggie sawys yoonie gwow if yoonie eawts fwuiwts" he said. "No appa doesn't wants my little kitty to grow, please don't..." I said for which he pouted. It felt like I just bundled up him in swaddle clothes yesterday but god...he is a year old now. Just how fast the time flies.