I love you, Yuki. | Hwang Hyunjin

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Hyunjin's POV

"Hyunjin" Mom called as she entered the room "Why did you drank? You know it's not good for you"

"I don't know. I can't understand what I am feeling right now. T-That kid deserves to live more than me. W-Why?"

She kneeled in front of me and hugged me tight "Sunghyun tried his best and all he wanted in his life is to survive, to spend time with us. You don't have to badmouth yourself. Hyunjin, you deserve to live too"

I stayed quiet as I let Mom hug me tight. I just don't understand why does this happen to us? I have all the disease that every person can have. I suffered all the years trying to survive although I always wanted to give up. I never hoped for me to be better and well. I only hoped for the kid's healthy to be fine, I want him to survive. That's all I hoped for but why can't it happen?

"Yesterday" Mom said and let go of the hug "We decided to cremate him as soon as possible"

"Mom, why would you decide like that? You should give him a funeral! Please-"

"That's what Hyunsoo wants. He can't face any people after what happened. He wants his son to be at peace already" Mom

"Where should I go?"

"We will drive you there. You can't drive in that situation" Mom caress my back

I followed her downstairs, there I saw Father waiting for us. We got in his car and he drove to the columbarium where Hyunsoo is. He didn't went home last night and stayed there with Sunghyun. It's hard for us but it's harder for Hyunsoo. He took care of him even though he is still young and doesn't know anything. He became a responsible and good Father for Sunghyun but everything faded away.

"Yuki stayed with you last night" Dad

"Yuki did?"

"You don't remember? She went there when I texted her Mom. She saw you drinking and made you stop" Mom

"I don't know. I don't remember anything right now"

"You should tell her you are okay now. She was worried last night" Mom

Then, I just realized I never opened my phone since yesterday when I find out about Sunghyun. As I opened the phone, I saw a lot of missed calls and messages from my friends asking about me and my family, if we are okay or if we need help. They also sent me a condolence message for what happened to Sunghyun. I also received messages from their family as well.

I scrolled down and saw Yuki's messages to me.

From : Yukilove

I know it's hard but keep fighting and moving forward.

From : Yukilove

I've been there. The hardest part of moving on, is waking up without seeing that person's face.

From : Yukilove

It'll get better soon. Sunghyun seems a cheerful child and he is now free from the pain and hardships. You just have to wish him well and happiness wherever he is right now.

From : Yukilove

Keep fighting, Hyunjin. I'm always here. I love you.

She kept messaging me about what she is doing, where she is going. She also sent me a photo of her at the school with Jeongin and Jisung. She sent me photo of her writing and eating.

Yukilove calling...

[Hi, how are you?]

"I'm good. Did you eat lunch?"

[Yup, I did]

"That's good. We are on our way to the columbarium. Hyunsoo wants Sunghyun to be cremated already"

[Oh, it must be hard for him to see his son again. It'll be hard for him to let go]

"Hmm"

[You want to hang up? I'll call you again later if it's okay]

"Sure. Thanks"

[Okay, I love you!]

She ended the call.

We finally arrived, and we went to the floor where Hyunsoo is. We saw him standing in front of the cremated ashes of Sunghyun. There is also a picture of Sunghyun there and some photos of him with his Mom and Dad. We never even had a photo.

"We'll wait for you two downstairs" Mom said

I just nodded and watched the two leave us.

"I didn't get to bring him to disney land, it's his birthday tomorrow. Everything is prepared"

"I agree. He left quickly" Hyunsoo sighed and handed me the matches "You should lit the candle for him"

I did lit the candle like what Hyunsoo wanted me to do. I put the flower inside and touched Sunghyun's photo.

I hope you are well...

"He didn't even saw Yuki"

"Right. I'm sure he will be happy to see her again" Hyunsoo smiled a bit but eyes were full of pain "I always wonder if his Mom thought of him once? She didn't even go here when I told her that Sunghyun is gone. What a heartless person"

"Hyunsoo, I'm sure she will go here. Just give her some time"

"Sunghyun will be happy if ever I introduced Yuki as his Mom. Yuki is such a nice person and I know she will take care of Sunghyun like how she takes care of you" Hyunsoo

"She is a nice person"

And she doesn't deserve to feel the pain. All she does is understand every situation she has and survive it alone.

But why do I feel like I am giving her a hard time?

I want to tell her the truth.

I can't continue lying to her anymore.