Sophia
Now that December is around the corner I got to do my favorite thing ever and that's go shopping. Not to toot my own horn but I'm a pretty great gift giver. Granted there's not a whole bunch of people who I would give gifts to, the ones who are ever so unlucky to call me someone special gets some pretty great things. I am not one to get sentimental but something about this holiday gives me the feels.
So I decorate the inside of my apartment and make it feel like a winter wonderland. Summertime was my favorite but I'm a sucker for hot chocolate and sitting around a fire while listening to Christmas music.
This Christmas means a lot to me because my dad and brother agreed to join Patrick and his family for the special occasion. It'll be the first time they all meet and I think everyone is equally excited. This was two of the biggest names in sports coming together with the Elway's and the Kane's. I couldn't wait for all my favorite people to be in one place. For the first time in a long time I actually cared about how this holiday turns out. I hope we all enjoy the time we spend together and make some memories. This is Patrick's first Christmas without his grandpa, I know it's going to be hard. And with my mom showing up out of the blue things have been quite a bit crazy in the city. I don't think she's ready to face our dad quite yet so I'll probably spend Christmas Eve with her and Henry. But I was excited to share my favorite holiday with my favorite people.
After spending entirely too long in Ross I show up at Patrick's place. No offense but his place was about as seasoned as raw ramen noodles straight out the package before you out the flavor packet in. I took it into my own hands to decorate for Christmas and make sure his place felt like a home. So I start up with the red and black decorations that match with his Blackhawks things he keeps around. I find the biggest tree I can fit in his apartment and get to dressing it. Patrick works on the stockings and filling them with some stuff I picked up that won't go bad by the time Christmas arrives.
"What do you want for Christmas" Patrick asks me as he works on making the stocking hang straight.
"Peace of mind" I tease making him laugh.
"I'm serious! I have some ideas but I need to narrow it down" he claims.
"I don't like asking for things. If I need it I'll get it" I defend.
"This isn't about what you need but rather what you want. So what do you want" he asks again.
"I don't know" I sigh. "I feel like what I want, what I truly feel like I would like to see happen in my life can't be wrapped up in a box and tied with a ribbon. It's more complicated than that."
"I know what you mean" he agrees.
The music continues to softly play in the background as we continue to decorate. Every once in a while I catch his glance making me smile. So much goes left unsaid between us but I don't know what to say let alone how to say it.
"So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me want to turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
'Cause everybody's after love."
Patrick steps away from the stockings and joins me at the tree. We hang ornaments and turn the lights on to help us see. He peaks at me through the bristles making me smile. Just a look and he has got me blushing. I've never felt like this with anyone, then again I didn't know the first thing about love, if that's what this is.
I wasn't quite sure because I never had a chance to figure it out before. And I never meant for any of this to happen either. When Patrick and I first started hanging out it was strictly platonic. Never did I think I would fall for a guy so much like me but better in the best ways possible. Now all I need is for his eyes to meet mine and I felt like I could fly. What a incredible feeling that was?
"So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no
Come on, come on
Move a little closer
Come on, come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once upon a time in love."
"What if I get us a trip? Not as a Christmas present but just to give us something to look forward to, just because" he asks me and I smirk. I loved going places with him and traveling was one of my favorite things to do.
"Where would we be going" I wonder.
"I was thinking Australia, Melbourne to be exact" he says like I did not too long ago. Of course he remembers stuff like that, because maybe he's accidentally in love with me too.
"We're not running away are we" I ask.
"It's a round trip and it's for a mid season break. But I think it would be a fun thing to do. You love this place and I would love to see it, with you" he claims.
"I think that sounds wonderful Pat" I smile.
He places a quick kiss on my cheek before slipping pass me and to the ornament box. I watch him closely as he returns to the task at hand. But I was lost in the idea of loving a man I never meant to love.
"We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally
I'm in love, I'm in love,
I'm in love, I'm in love,
I'm in love, I'm in love,
Accidentally
I'm in love, I'm in love,
I'm in love, I'm in love,
I'm in love, I'm in love,
Accidentally
Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her
Love I'm in love."
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Shadows (Patrick Kane)
FanfictionNo ones live their life with conviction, we all have a choices to make that guides us in where we will go. Patrick Kane never had issues deciding what he wanted to to be for hockey is all he has known since he was a kid. Sophia on the other hand has...
