Shadows (Patrick Kane)

(74) Dreaming Of You

Sophia

We were out in Anaheim for a game against the Ducks and the guys had a early practice tomorrow morning due to travel. So everyone trails into the hotel pretty late ready for a good sleep after a long flight after a game. I decide to do some notes and watch some film because I wasn't too tired. I don't usually sleep well but its always been like that. I thrive in the night time and I didn't have to be anywhere until the game tomorrow so I had time to waste. Might as well be productive.

At about 3 am I hear a knock on my door and I seriously think about not answering it. It's late and I'm in a different part of the country than I'm used to. Everyone I know should be asleep so if this was some intruder I was screwed.

Instead I see Patrick on the other side of the door and let out a sigh of relief. I open up the door to see see him standing there with tired eyes and a bag of popcorn.

"Can't sleep" I wonder.

"Apparently not" he admits.

"Well come on in. I'm watching film so you can come chill with me and help me out" I insist.

"Oh! My favorite" he perks up.

He sits on the couch and we watch film for a while. We just talk like we always do and before we know it it gets even later. I wanted him to sleep for the game tomorrow but he kept telling me he isn't tired. I don't believe him but I can't make the man sleep if my life depended on it.

"If we go lay down on the bed in my room will you promise to try to sleep" I beg.

"But I like spending time with you" he pouts.

"You're going to be spending a lot of time with me if you mess up your sleep and get kicked out of the playoffs" I threaten.

"Ugh... fine. I'll go. But you're coming with" he insists.

"I mean it is my bed" I giggle.

So I make him put away the popcorn and we crawl into bed. He sheds his shirt and his shorts until he was in his boxers. I shed my clothes and pick up his shirt until I was in just his shirt and my underwear. I cuddle into him as his arms wrap around me. We fit together a little too perfectly as I lean into his chest. I feel him kiss the top of my head giving me butterflies.

"Do you want some music" I ask.

"That might help" he admits.

So I find my phone and put on shuffle the playlist I have for sleep. The music begins and already I start to get tired. But before I can drift off I turn over in his arms so I can look at him. He smiles real big and when his eyes meet mine I get this feeling that makes me curl my toes. Even in the dark I see him, I always was able to see him for who he was. His hand comes up and softly moves some hair from my face. Oh how I loved this man.

"Late at night when all the world
Is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

'Cause I'm dreaming
Of you tonight
'Till tomorrow
I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
Dreaming about you and me."

As I stare at him I realized this is a lot like what I dreamed of. I wanted to be that girl in school that people would look at and say, "look at her. She is so in love." All the girls would be jealous because I would walk down the hallways with my soul mate hand and hand and every single person would know nothing would ever come between us. I wanted to be held and felt like I would never be let go. When I was little I would watch the movies and see how the guys looked at the girl, I wanted to feel what she felt in that moment. I created this idea of what love means. Dreamt of the day I could roll over in bed and know that the best parts of my life was laying right next to me.

But after a while I stopped trying. I dreamed of a love that was made up. You don't plan love, you fall. And so I stoped trying and eventually I fell. And it ended up a lot like I thought it would be. Of course there's a lot more to it than him loving me and me loving him. But at the same time I feel exactly how I imagined I would. Weightless. Purposeful. Beautiful.

"Wonder if you ever see me (see me)
And I wonder if you know I'm there (am I there? Am I?)
If you looked in my eyes,
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you, yes I do!

I'll be dreaming
Of you tonight
'Till tomorrow
I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
Dreaming about you and me."

He leans over before softly pressing his lips to mine. My nails dig into his back as I pull him close.

"This doesn't look like sleeping to me" I whisper on his lips causing him to smile.

"I can stop" he teases.

"No no. That's not necessary" I assure him. He pulls me into another kiss before resting his forehead on mine.

Somehow in the middle of the chaos, in the middle of this crazy life, we found comfort in each other. We found someone that no matter where in this world we are were thinking about each other. And to me that's all a girl could ask for. Someone who wants to be with her as much as she wants to be with him. Someone who in the middle of the night thinks she is the answer to the sleepless night.

"I can't stop dreaming of you
(No puedo dejar de pensar en ti)
I can't stop dreaming
(Cómo te necesito)
I can't stop dreaming of you
(Mi amor, cómo te extraño)

Late at night when all the world
Is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me
And said, "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming
With you tonight
'Till tomorrow
And for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
Dreaming with you endlessly

With you tonight
And there's nowhere in the world where I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming
Of you tonight
And I'll be holding you tight."

Finally he drifts off and I do wonder if he dreams of me too.