BEYNIKA SHOTS

𝐌𝐲 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫

"I can't keep dealing with the same shit Onika, you say you're sorry that it won't happen again but you go back and do it, I'm tired of crying for you.

Am I not enough?! what do those other girls have that I don't?!" I scream tears streaming down my face, this is just too much to handle.

I can't keep dealing with the same things over and over again.

One day it's 'I was drunk, I didn't mean it, that's the last time bey.'

Some days its 'I didn't want to do it, it was an in the heat of the moment type of thing' I am tired of Onika and her cheating.

"I'm so-" She tried to say but I cut her off.

"Save it Nicki, I know you're not sorry you've told me this same bull for a long time now and I'm done believing it and you that this relationship can work out." I said and walked towards the door.

"But..." She tried to say again.

"But nothing, get out!" I said pointing towards the door.

"Bey, I'm sorry I mean it this time, please forgive me."

"If you're really sorry you'll get some help and now please leave, I need some time away from you." I said and walked upstairs.

Onika's pov

I'd be lying if I say what she said didn't hurt because it did so bad. I don't know what my problem is, I've hurt Bey so much. I don't know why she stayed. I really have a lot of commitment issues which, I need to get help for.

I can't stand the thought of losing Bey and all because of my stupidity.

I gathered the last of my things and walked out the house, once I got in the car, I broke down this wasn't supposed to happen. I immediately deleted the numbers of all my side hoes, I can't keep doing this to Bey and myself.

I dialed my mama's number, I need some help and I know she's the only one who wouldn't judge me after how stupid, I was being. I messed up the only good thing in my life.

"Mama." I sniffled.

"Yes child you called..... wait are you crying?" she asked sounding worried.

"Mama, can I come over I need to talk to you." I sighed.

"Please come, I'll be waiting for you and you'll tell me everything you hear me?"

"Yeah."

With that I cut off the line and drove down to my mama's house. It was a ten minute drive from our house.

"Mama." I said walking into the living room.

"Yeah, sit down why it look like you've been crying?"

"Because, I have ma I did something really wrong." I said sitting down next to her.

"What did you do?"

"I-I messed up my relationship with Beyoncé, I-I-I..."

"You what?"

"I cheated, what should I do I realize my mistake and I really wanna make it up to her." I said as I started crying again and laid my head on her shoulder, she ran her fingers through my hair, something that always soothed me since I was a child.

"You want my honest opinion Tanya?"

"Yes, I do, I really do."

"You messed up bad, as in really really bad, as in really really b-..."

"Ok, I get it ma, no need to make it worse."

"Calm down Onika, I'm still talking. Anyways as I was saying before you rudely interrupted me, you need help as in you need to see a therapist, and please get Bey back, you know I love that girl, she better than them fast ass girls you be bringing home." She rolled her eyes.

"Mhmm..." I said feeling the full effect of the head massage. Soon I dozed off.

*3 months later*

It's been three months since Bey left me, and I've been going to therapy more often and yesterday was my last session. I've been sending Bey messages but each and every one of them have been ignored and I understand, she does have a right to be angry after everything I did, I deserve the silent treatment.

But today I'm going to Bey's house to try and get her back, I need to talk to her and sending messages just won't cut it.

*At their house*

I knocked on the door patiently waiting for her to answer it, I know most of you are thinking don't I have a spare key. I mean I used to live here.
Actually I do, I just don't think it will be right to just walk into the house not especially after what happened between us the last time we talked.

"Who is i-......Oh it's just you." Beyoncé looked very unamused when she opened the door.

"B-bey... I um I-" I said stuttering out, my nerves were all over the place.

"Can you hurry up please, I was doing something before you came up here."

"Actually please can I come in and talk?" I said hopefully.

"No, I think you'll be just fine out there now hurry up with what you have to say, some of us actually have things to do." she said sounding irritated.

"Beyonce please, I want to apologize for everything I've done to you." she looked like she was listening so I continued. "I know I may not have been the best girlfriend-"

"Correct!"

"As I way saying, I'm sorry for everything I've done and no this is not just a way for you to forgive me and let me in again so I can continue my stupidity, I'm sincerely sorry for what I've done, I know I've caused you pain and heartbreak and I've realized that now. I even went for therapy for the past three months, cause if you said I needed help, then I surely needed help, I'm sorry and I love you

I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me..... please?"

She looked at me like she was trying to comprehend everything I had just said then she smiled, it seemed genuine and not sarcastic. Gosh, that made the butterflies in my stomach go crazy.

"You don't know how long I've waited for you to say those words and actually mean it, I love you too, but it will take time to fully regain my trust back." She said.

What she said made me feel guilty and I guess she read my facial expression when she said.

"Uh, don't feel guilty. c'mere."
She held out her hands for me and I immediately fell into her embrace.

Those girls were just a phase but she'll never be just a phase.

She's my forever.

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This ended stupidly but then I couldn't really edit in a better ending since a lot of people have already read this before.

Anyways thoughts?

- Author 🌈🍹