Young Blood || Cimorelli

[19]

A ray of sun was right on my face and I couldn't keep sleeping. I rolled out off bed carelessly and I felt a sharp pain on my wrists. I looked at them, they were bandaged and I suddenly remembered everything that happened yesterday. I sighed, getting inside the bed again. Lisa's bed. She wasn't here, Lauren and dani weren't either. I felt some footsteps outside the room and I covered myself up to the head. I didn't wanted to face anyone, I wasn't prepared enough to look at them. The door opened and somebody walked in, standing next to the bed. I held my breath.

'Spencer' Christina gently touched my shoulder and I breathed again but I didn't moved. Another person walked inside the room and lay down next to me.

'Wake up' Lisa gently touched my back and I groaned.

'I don't want to' I whispered.

'Spencer' Christina called me and I turned around, annoyed.

'What'

'You know we gotta talk about what happened right?' She asked and I nodded, looking away. I knew I had to tell them what happened, but I didn't knew how. I mean, nothing prepares you for things like this right?.

'Where are they?' I asked, pointing at the bunk in front.

'Downstairs' Lisa replied, looking at me. 'We told our parents that we will talk to you. They're worried, sad and every feeling that involves what happened.'

'You have to talk to us, unless you want mom and dad in this room.' Christina softly told me and I sighed, again. I didn't knew what to say, where to start. My hands were shaking and I looked at the ground, ashamed.

'Why?' Lisa asked me, looking at my wrists. They were wrapped, but you still could see the old scars on the upper arm. She gently touched them and I held back my tears.

'I don't... know' I softly replied and Christina looked at me.

'I apologize for all the times we yelled at you, we attacked you instead of helping you. We drown you more and I'm aware of it. I'm so sorry for not being there for you.' She apologized as tears were falling down her cheeks. I felt something in my chest, something exploding and I realized that I needed to tell them the truth, to tell them everything.

'I don't know how to deal with this' I replied, letting some tears fall down my cheeks.

'Deal with what?' Lisa asked confused.

'He... he just-' The bell rang, interrupting me. I heard Dani yelling and somebody running upstairs. The door suddenly opened and Luke was standing there. He walked closer and sat down next to me. I curled up on his chest and sobbed. I needed him but I hated the fact that he was here, looking at me being all weak. He settled on the bed and I practically sat on his lap, hiding my face on the crook of his neck. I knew Christina was looking at us, I could feel her gaze burning in my back. I guess Lisa motioned Christina to walk out of the room because that's what they did. Now it was just me and Luke, in completely silence, just my sobbing filling up the room.

'What happened princess?' He softly asked me, and I sobbed.

'I'm.. I... don't know' I replied, not really knowing how to explain it to him.

'You know you can trust in me right?' He asked and I nodded. 'I don't want to push you, but I really need to know. I feel useless and I know it's not about me but... ' He stopped talking. I looked up, he was blankly looking at the wall.

'But what?' I asked unsure. He shook his head.

'Talk to me Spencer, we're a couple... you need to trust in my in order to make this relationship strong' He told me and I frowned, a little confused.