Young Blood || Cimorelli

[27]

The cold wind of the night was making me shiver. I could see my own breath, I could hear my own heart beating. I was sitting in a cold bench in the middle of the bridge, looking at the water. The city was crowded and noisy, but I couldn't hear anything else but my own thoughts, I couldn't look away from the horizon, right where the sky and the water meet. 

 A couple of days had passed since the concert. Peter lectured us for three hours straight, saying that it was the most stupid thing we could've done, that we've risked the investigation and my own safety. But I didn't care at all. Luke knew I was alive and now my family probably knew it too. I know I said I was ready to face my past and let my love ones know that I was alive and breathing, but being fair... I wasn't. Not back then and not now. I was frightened. Funny thing, trying to run away from my past. 

''Hey'' I felt someone touching my shoulder. I didn't bother to look, knowing who that voice belonged to. ''You've been here quite a while'' Dante simply said and I nodded. 

''Back then in LA, I had this place where I ran every time things got difficult. It was a cliff and you could look at the sea. It was the most peaceful and amazing place in the entire world. This place reminds me of that, despite of the noise of course'' I said, looking at Dante. He nodded softly, looking at the sky.

''I love having you here'' He simply said, turning around and meeting my gaze. I felt something inside that I couldn't quite describe. He weakly smiled. ''I really like you and I know it's stupid seeing that you're utterly in love with Luke'' 

 ''Dan-'' 

 ''No, wait. I have feelings for you. You're amazing, you're just simply incredible and having you here has been for sure a change in my life. Before we met, my life was a mess. I lost everything some time ago, I didn't believed in anything. I was broken and lost. But I met you. I got to know you and I know you belong with Luke. I've been selfish most of my life and what I'm about to say it's probably one of the hardest things a person can do: Letting go of what you love. But Spencer, you have a family, you have people who cares about you. People that now are heartbroken thinking that you're somewhere dead. Running from your past and leaving it behind sounds like such a good thing to do. But it's not. Trust me it's not. Not when you realize you have no one to stay with, no one who can support you and who to trust when things seem lost. You have the chance of fixing this and I deeply think that that's what you need to do'' Dante explained. I was speechless and in tears. 

 ''I don't want to be the same girl I used to be'' I replied between tears. He smiled at me and embraced me, feeling the comfort of a really needy hug. He was all I had afterall and his confession has turned out to be more important than anything.

''You don't have to be that girl. You're so not that girl who used to harm herself and think that suicide could solve all of her problems. That girl died a long time ago, right before prague, right before you realized how important a person could become. Luke was your light, your reason to stay alive and to fight against the odds and obstacles. He was the light in your path, now it's up to you to turn the light again and let it guide you.'' He comforted me. 

 I slowly nodded and settled, looking at him and cleaning my tears away. He was right. There was no need for me to be the girl I used to be. I have millions of reasons to keep being the girl I am today and to just simply stay alive. The world might be overwhelming sometimes, but if moments like this keep happening, if people this amazing keep showing up in my life then I was going to be okay, I was going to survive and it was all going to be worth it. 

 ''Now I think it's the perfect time to start fixing things. See you around'' Dante said getting up, leaving me there confused, as I looked at him dissapearing through the crowd. I got up too and walked closer to the rail. 

 I was still in shock, dante's words were what I needed. He encouraged me to do the things I was doubting about, to get my life together and fight for the things that I love. I grabbed my phone from the pocket of my jacket and dialed the familiar number. It was the only one I knew, the only one I used to call. I didn't knew how was I supposed to say what I really needed to say. Should I introduce myself? Should I do this in another time? Should I just let-

- Hello?- Someone picked up the phone and I froze. My vision became blurry and I smiled when I realized how much I've missed that voice. It was all clear right now, she was my best friend and the one I've been needing the most. 

 - Hey - I whispered, unable to say anything else. I heard her gasp on the other side of the line, followed by some sobs. - I made a mistake by thinking that I could move on with my life leaving you guys behind. I made a mistake but someone told me that it wasn't late to try to fix things. Fix our issues and forgive. I know it seems shallow but I am indeed, stating that I forgive you and I'm deeply hoping that you get to forgive me for all the pain I've caused to you. 

 - Baby girl - Lisa sobbed on the phone. - You're alive, you're alive, you're alive - She kept repeating, making me laugh in between my own sobs. 

 - I am.

- I forgive you. I forgave you a long time ago but I was afraid you weren't able to forgive us for everything we've done wrong. I thought I didn't had another chance to tell you this, to hear your voice and your laugh. I thought I had lost you forever and that you wouldn't be able to know how much I love you and how important you are to me. - She said, making me smile. 

 - I'm sorry again, for not letting you know I was alive - I apologized. 

 - Where are you? 

 - Prague - I replied after a few seconds. 

 - I'll go find you, I'll go there and I'll bring you home, just wait... wait for me.

**Just like I promised, here's another chapter. I don't think I'll be able to update in the week but I hope I can find some time.  Sorry for not updating in such a long time, but I'll make it up to you guys.

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