Young Blood || Cimorelli

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        Noises were coming from downstairs. I groaned, pulling my pillow in my head hoping that it could decrease the noises. Wrong. It didn't helped at all. I felt some footsteps and then a soft knock on the door.

        'Spencer?' It was mom. I pretended to be sleeping. She walked inside, opening the curtains and the window. I groaned. 'Come inside, sweetheart' She told someone. I opened my eyes, looking at the wall. Who the fuck was she talking to?

        'Thank you Ms. Cimorelli' No way, no fucking way. This has to be a joke. Jessica Parker was in my house. How could I forget that today was Monday and that she was going to stay here for a month. How could I be so dumb.

        'You're going to sleep here, if you feel uncomfortable, tell us so we can fix a private room for you' Mom added.

        'Thank you so much, I guess I'll be fine here, it looks nice' Jess replied. I felt the urge to throw a pillow at her, but I couldn't. Not today.

        'You're welcome, Sweetie. Now I'll go so you can unpack' She said, walking out. As soon as she closed the door, Jess spoke.

        'I know you're awake, you can't fool me' She said. wow, sassy. I turned around, sitting in the edge of the bunk. 'Nice bruise there' She pointed at my mouth. I touched it, remembering the tragic events. I climbed out the bunk and walked out, in pain. I couldn't walk properly, my entire body was in sore. 'You're so weird' She said pointing at me and then turning around. I managed to walked downstairs, where the smell of pancakes made my stomach growls. I sat in the couch, avoiding the kitchen at all costs. I couldn't gain more weight, I made a promise and I wasn't going to break it.

        'Hey' Christina sat down next to me. I must admit that I was a little scared of her, because she was like... bossy and seriously she was like a real mother to all of us. I looked at her. 'So, what happened yesterday? You were crying' She said. I sighed

        'Nothing really' I lied. She looked at me straight in my eyes.

        'I know something happened. You can't fool me' She added, raising an eyebrow. I looked at her emotionless. I really didn't wanted to share what happened yesterday, because it hurt like hell and besides I wanted to avoid thinking of that.

        'Christina... ' I said, shaking my head. She knew something had happened, maybe lisa told her or maybe I was being way too obvious.

        'Spencer... ' She replied back, making me giggle. She smiled at me and we sat down there for about half an hour, doing nothing. She was probably bored of waiting for me to tell her, because she got up and walked to who knows where.

        'SPENCER YOUR PHONE IS RINGING' I heard dani yelling from upstairs. I got up quickly, bad idea. I felt a sharp pain in my whole freaking body, I fell to the floor because the pain was huge. I was so confused. My legs were shaking and I had to bite my lip to keep from screaming in pain. Every possible thought about what could this mean, crossed my mind. What if he didn't wore protection, what if he got me pregnant? what if he has an STD? What if he got me sick?

        'ARE YOU OKAY?' I saw Amy running to me. She lay down next to me, touching my head. My eyes were closed and I was trying to focus on my breathing. 'CHRISTINA' She yelled. My heart stopped, please don't. I felt some footsteps running down the stairs and in a few seconds, Christina was sitting next to me.

        'Spencer, what's going on?' She asked scared. I didn't replied. 'Talk to me, open your freaking eyes!' She demanded me. I did what she told me.

        'Leave me alone' I whispered, looking at my hands that were shaking. The pain was fading away, but my sisters were still there.

        'No, tell me what is going on' She demanded again.

        'LEAVE ME ALONE!' I yelled at her. She looked at me in shock.

        'I'm just trying to help you' She replied. I'm sorry Christina.

        'I don't want your help' I added, getting up. I was still feeling weak but the pain was almost gone, and I managed to walk to the stairs. I didn't dare to look back, I knew I had hurt her.... again. But this was my problem, my burden. Maybe I deserved that, maybe I should tell everybody what happened, so he can kill me. Tears were streaming down my face. I walked inside my room.

        'The baby is crying' I immediately recognized the voice. Jess. Ugh, I didn't remembered that she was actually here.

        'Very mature' I replied between sobs. I walked out to the bathroom. I didn't have a place to stay, to vent. I lay down on the tub and I fell asleep there.

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        I opened my eyes slowly. My head was killing me, all because I had decided to sleep in the bathtub. Very smart if you ask me. The curtains were closed so I got up. My phone was lying in a corner of the room, don't ask me how it got there. I touched the screen, 35 missed calls from my family, tons of messages and voice mails. Oops. I looked outside the window, it was pretty dark. I looked back at the screen... 5:59 am. Fuck. I slowly walked out, everybody seemed to be sleeping. I walked downstairs and sat in the couch. I don't know how much passed until I decided to go out to watch the sunrise. I lay down in the grass, watching the sky turning into a bright blue color, It was beautiful.

        'Nice view' I heard. I turned around, Matt was there. My heart stopped and I felt my eyes watering. He looked at me.

        'What the fuck do you want?' I rudely asked. He laughed.

        'Just came to make sure you were okay, I'm not the type of guy that disappears after having sex' He told me. I just sat down there, not knowing exactly what to say. My heart was in pain, more than I could handle. We sat there for about 15 minutes, once in a while I felt his eyes on me. He stroked my cheek.

        'Stop please' I kinda begged him, but he just laughed.

        'By the way, you did amazing' He whispered in my ear. I was frightened. He placed a gently kiss in my cheek and then walked away. I stood there, not knowing exactly what to do. Tears were falling down my eyes and I was shaking uncontrollably. After a few minutes, I got up. I was angry, I was broken. I ran to my room, but as I was running, I crashed with someone.

        'I saw it all' Jess. She was waiting for me in the living room, so she kinda did it on purpose.

        'What are you talking about?' I asked, wiping the tears in my eyes. She raised an eyebrow.

        'Seriously? You think I'm dumb enough to see that you're banging my man?' She asked. I looked at her confused... her boyfriend?. 'So now you won't say anything. Listen to me you little bitch, if I ever see you around him again, I will make your life a living hell.' She finished, leaving me there. I ran to the bathroom, apparently the only place were I could find peace. I took my razor and did my thing. I looked at the blood flowing through my arms. I'm a helpless person.

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