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24

Harry

As we walk back from the restaurant to the hotel, my eyes are on Grace. She walks in front of me, talking to Elias.

That last night in Paris... God she was just breathtaking.

Thank god I know French because I couldn't hold back from saying how beautiful she was. When she came out into the living room dressed like that, I didn't feel worthy to be in the presence of such beauty.

Yesterday was a lot. Dancing in the living room at two in the morning, holding her at the Eiffel Tower, having lunch with her, getting her flowers. I knew she would look beautiful in that dress, but it was like made for her. She looked like she came straight out of a fairytale.

Every time I looked at her, I had to fight the urge to just admit my feelings for her. I almost did it countless times before I finally decided it was better I just speak to her in French whenever I got the urge. That way I could get it out and not have her understand me.

I fell in love with Grace last night.

I fell in love with her eyes and with her smile. I fell in love with her voice and with her laugh. I fell in love with her freckles and her straight teeth. I fell in love with her stubbornness and her gentleness.

I fell in love with Grace.

I had feelings for her before that moment, of course. But the second she walked into that room, I fell in love.

It's so wrong of me. She doesn't want a relationship, not to mention she only sees me as a friend. And now I can't even trust myself around her because I'm scared the next time I open my mouth to speak to her, I'm going to just expose my true feelings.

She's barely over Jesse, which is understandable since it hasn't even been a month for her and they were together for years. I know falling for her is the worst thing I could do right now. But how could I not fall for her?

I don't know how I'll be able to keep this in for the rest of the trip, but I'll have to try.

That fan showing up today and interrupting our trip absolutely devastated me today. We were in such a little bubble for the past few days, I almost forgot I was famous. Besides all the spending money and fancy dinners, I felt like I was just another guy. They treat me like I'm just another person.

I love my fans and I never want them to have a bad experience meeting me. I'm the one who chose to go out and if they spot me out on the street, they have every right to come up and say hello or ask for a picture.

I just wish it didn't happen today. We just got to Barcelona and had only been walking around for an hour when we ran into her. I felt like I ruined the entire day because of my fame. They kept reassuring me that the day wasn't ruined and they were so nice about helping me hide my identity a bit more, but it's not fair to them.

This trip is supposed to be for Grace and for her to forget about Jesse and focus on her friends and her film, but now it's become about me and hiding from my fans. They should just kick me off the trip.

The girl obviously posted the picture of the two of us online and while she didn't say we were in Barcelona, she had already posted about being in Barcelona the day before so people put two and two together. We've been avoiding crowded streets and if we go to touristy spots I'll usually stay behind and let them go look.

I could tell Grace doesn't like that though. She's had these puppy dog eyes all day and keeps telling me we could just go and spend the rest of the day in the hotel. We shouldn't have to do that though. We're only in Barcelona for tomorrow and then we have to go to Vienna.