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Grace

One year and four months. That's how long Harry and I have been together. And nobody even really knows. Well, they didn't know.

For months now we've been slowly letting ourselves be more public together. No kissing or anything, but we've hugged and are always holding hands. Silly, I know, but we're both kind of terrified of how his fans will react to us being together.

And we were kind of justified in that. We had been planning on saying we were together around Thanksgiving time. We were gonna go on our little trip to Paris and relax before going to London to head back to New York with his family for the holiday. Only, a fan caught us making out on an empty street and messed that up for us.

The reaction was quite frankly madness in the first few days. I mean, Harry Styles was seen on an intimate vacation with his best friend Elias' little sister. Did Eli know? You know, headlines like that. There were people straight up denying we were kissing, opting for the option that he was just getting an eyelash off of my face or giving me CPR. However, the general consensus was, "holy crap Harry and Grace have a thing happening and we thought that they were just friends" which wasn't off. That's what we led them to believe for over a year.

Now we've been laying low. The shock of being thrust out into the media as a couple was intense. We thought we could handle it, but it was a lot more stressful than either one of us could ever imagine. I'm not one to let hate get to me, actually Harry's been pretty impressed with how much it just doesn't bother me. What bothers me are the articles and constant paparazzi.

Every time I leave the house to go to work I'm bombarded by cameras, trying to get as many pictures as they can. Even Holly's been getting photographed as she leaves the apartment, which does not go over well. Rocco's been trying his best to get the cameras off the street, but it's been hard. It's even worse when I'm sleeping over at Harry's. I can't imagine the reaction when we move in together.

The articles are also bothering me a lot. "Who is Harry's flavor of the month?" "Harry Styles dates best friend's sister" "Harry cheats with new blonde hottie" Holly liked that last one actually because they called her a hottie. If only they knew she and Niall were dating, I think the media would short circuit.

This whole media storm has caused my parents to really just shine and show just how amazing they are. Funny how every "insider" says I'm a bitch who always ruins things for my brother, or that I'm a gold digger, or that my major daddy issues have been a point of contention in the relationship already. They are the main reason I've been avoiding the public unless I have to go out.

Harry, on the other hand, has been seething. I don't think I've ever seen the man angry like ever. He's usually so relaxed and laid back, but it's like the second he sees one mean thing about me on the internet, or worse an article where my parents are quite obviously the source of information, he loses it. I've had to take his phone away on many occasions because he'll start going after fans and media companies in dms. It's just been the biggest shit show.

I know things will get better, it's just the initial shock of finding out Harry's not single and the person everyone thought was just a friend turned out to be more than that. These past few weeks have just been so draining and chaotic, it's a little hard to look past that. But we're ready to try to move on.

Looking in the mirror, I finish up getting ready. Harry and I decided that today we're just going to go out and do some Christmas shopping for the family. It's gonna be our first time being seen out together since the Paris pictures. I'm meeting him down in Soho since he had to run into the office for a little bit to talk about the new album.