Abditory [H.S]

5

Here you go, enjoy!

Luella Jones

I've finished english, history, and physics classes, and I'm currently at lunch sitting next to Fiona.

"Wait, so you're telling me he offered you for a ride, and you said no!?"

I told her what happened this morning, and the fact that she's upset with me for declining really confuses me.

"Yes, I said no, do you seriously expect me to get into a car with a total stranger?" I ask her, confused as why she called me an idiot earlier when I told her first too.

"When a hot, curly headed boy asks if u need a ride, you say yes, Ella." She lectures me again, using the nickname she gave me in 8th grade.

"No, when a hot, curly headed boy asks if I need a ride, I turn away and run for my life." I disagree with her for the second time today.

"Ugh, he's so fuckin hot, though. You could've had the chance to make out with him in the back seat." She complains as if I'm not the logical one thinking here.

I furrow my eyebrows at her chewing on my chicken salad "Why would I wanna make out with him? We barely even know each other." I state the obvious here.

"Oh my god! Look at him!" She gestures to the table behind me at the end of the cafeteria, making me look at him, noticing how he's sitting with the blonde guy, Niall.

They're chatting something, but we can't really hear them because we're so far away.

"Why wouldn't you make out with him? Is the question here." She says in a frustrating tone.

"Fiona, you and I both know I'm not ready for that sort of thing yet." I see what she's hinting at, but it's senior year, I'm heading to college, and so is he. If we date, we're gonna have to do a long distance thing, and I'm not doing that. And plus, I need to focus on my grades now to get into a good college, not some 18 year old curly headed boy.

And to add on top of that, I broke up with my one year boyfriend just this summer. And I'm still not over the hurt Tyler made me go through.

I caught him cheating on me at Rylee's summer party, it was the last day in 11th grade, and all of the students were gathering at his house for the party he organized.

I didn't tell Tyler I was going though, I didn't get the chance to because Fiona dragged me with her to the party, even when I said no five times.

I walked inside the house, not even 30 seconds in, I saw him making out with a red headed girl on the couch.

I felt disgusted, nauseous, and really upset.

I actually liked him, and was hoping it'd work out, I mean, he was a bit controlling, but he still made me feel like the only girl in the world.

He bought me so many things, and I lost my virginity to him, so if that doesn't say something, I don't know what does.

He made me feel loved, and I don't feel that so often.

I shake the thoughts out of my head, sniffing a bit as I feel myself zone out. Fiona is still looking at them, talking about who knows what.

"I'm going to the bathroom." I say as I exit myself, her finally looking at me with a furrowed eyebrows as she sees how red my face is. "You okay? You want me to go with you, love?" She asks in a caring tone.

I say no quickly and head to the bathroom, not wanting to bother her with the fact that I just relived a pain I don't wish on anyone.

I just wish he sticked with me a little longer, sometimes.

I get into the bathroom and sigh in relief at the fact no one is in here, opening the water and washing my face to calm myself down, and to wash the few tears away from my eyes.

What a fool I was back then, thinking I was enough for him to stay.

He ruined my whole summer, I spent everyday crying over him. We had planned out our whole future together, bought each other matching bracelets, made sleeping parties at one another.

His little brother even liked my little sister.

It really hurt me to tell her he cheated, i came back after the party, after I confronted him and called our relationship off, and locked myself in the bathroom, while Fiona and her kept banging on the door asking me to come out to talk.

I was a mess for months, but I got over it soon enough when school started again, ignoring him as much as I can due to the fact we share math class together.

I finish drying my face off, sniffing more and looking at myself in the mirror.

I really do have dark circles under my eyes.

I hear the door open, startling me as I see Fiona walk in. "Hey babe, I'm sorry if that was too much. I know how you still feel about...him. I didn't mean to pressure you. It was just a stupid joke. I know you're not supposed to make out with hot strangers." She blurts out quickly, standing infront of me, as she holds my cheeks.

"You did a great choice in running away from him, and I'm glad you're safe." She says staring at my eyes, pulling me into a very needed hug.

She was there for me during it all, I appreciated it so much, more than she could ever imagine.

As the smell of cocunut fill my nostrils, I hear the bell ring, meaning I need to get to class soon.

Fiona gives me my bag she grabbed from the lunch table, kissing my cheek and holding my arm with hers as we walk into Spanish class together.

I don't know what I did to deserve someone like her.

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Sorry luella but a main character isn't so main without a toxic ex djsbah