Abditory [H.S]

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Before yall start:

Liv Blue. age: 18

Baby blue represents healthiness, softness and optimism.

Luella Jones

Okay okay, I know this sounds pretty bad.

But it's not what you think.

I promise I'll explain in a second.

Yes, going out with Harry was a bad idea. No, screw that- it was a terrible idea.

I was shaking the entire night yesterday, and I couldn't stop worrying about what he would do to me when we were alone.

It's kind of messed up- but it just happened when he asked me, and I couldn't resist and miss the opportunity.

Basically, the reason I went out with him was to find out anything about him, and the whole gun shit, and why he refused to tell me what he does for work.

It was very weird, and really suspicious, so I just went along with it to see if I could find anything.

I didn't find out anything.

But that's fine- I got closer to Harry, and that's what matters now. Maybe one day he'll actually tell me.

For now, I just have to play nice and low.

Not to mention the whole fucking against the rock thing- he had me clenching my thighs.

It was hot, until he actually went down to it and I stopped him.

I was just not risking a potential murderer to be in my pants yesterday.

I did feel bad though. Plus it was confusing; the way he didn't react the way Tyler would usually when I'd turn him down. He actually stopped and respected my decision-- normally, Tyler would get mad at me and start yelling, but Harry did the complete opposite and I thank him for that. Never in my life I thought I'd see a boy actually stop when a girl tells him to.

It's currently night and Liv and I are sitting on the windowsill, just talking and drinking while she rolls a joint.

It isn't technically that much of a day, nothing amazing has happened, but I can blame that one on myself because I decided I didn't wanna go to the party the others were having.

Liv actually wanted to go, but she didn't wanna leave me alone, so she just went and brought two bottles of tequilla from them.

It's like 9pm, I missed the sunset because I was taking a shower which got me into a bad mood, so Liv suggested we drink the sadness away and smoke the numbness to the clouds.

She just went to take a piss, so I've been sitting here just thinking about everything until she gets back.

I already told her everything on the phone, thank god she was okay after the shooting. She apparently took a taxi as soon as she got out of the carnival, and went straight to the hotel.