Abditory [H.S]

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Sorry for being late! I totally forgot i even had a book to write into bc of how busy i've been lmao

Harry Styles

Driving through the night, the clock passes through midnight, indicating 12am. I yawn in tiredness silently, afraid of waking everyone up.

Kingston and Harvey are driving in their own car, already had gotten to my house a few minutes ago. I'm a bit close now, less than half an hour away.

Glancing at Luella on my side, I check to see if her head has fallen again for the third time. I've stopped the car twice now to fix it; she keeps falling over.

I watch as her face stills against the window, sleeping peacefully. Her hair has fallen over, covering her angelic face, arms are loose around her waist now, and body relaxed against her seat. It's good to see her nerves off for a while, she's been a bit too stressed lately.

And I hate that I'm a part of that.

I'm definitely the worst person ever when I'm sad, turning to my anger is such an awful mistake I always end up making. To yell at her and ignore her was probably the hardest thing I've ever done, to see the look in her eyes when I shut her down earlier broke my heart into a thousand pieces, and to not be able to reach out to touch her and help soothe her anxiety and apologize and reassure her I love her more than ever made my throat burn like I've just taken three shots.

I don't know what came over me, but hearing her trust him more than me hurt me in ways I couldn't imagine. My chest ached at the sound of hearing her say that, having her pick stupid Zayn over me; it still hurts, but not the same as not being able to hug her when I got into the car.

I don't think I can forgive myself for even slightly raising my voice at her. Oh, how much it pained me to not reach over and tuck a strand of her hair while she was awake; how badly I wanted to kiss her forehead. Suddenly, I craved doing everything to her all at once.

I look off the road for a second again as I turn my head towards her, catching her looking so effortlessly beautiful through my eyes. I just want to grab her face and kiss my sorries upon every inch of it. She didn't deserve what I did. She doesn't deserve what I did.

The car comes to a halt, parking it in between the grass field of my house beside Kingston's car, taking the keys away as I shut it off. I turn to smack Niall on the leg, waking Liam up as well as they all groan in tiredness.

"Come on, chop chop." I clap in front of their faces, startling Hartley in response. Hala curses under her breath, being the first to get out of the car since her seat is beside the window.

Everyone soon follows, making me reach over Luella to hold her face off the window, situating it against the back of the seat. I get out of the car, and walk towards her side to open the door. I don't wake her up, instead, I wrap an arm around her back and another under her knees, hoisting her up to my chest as I stand back still with her held in my arms. I shut the door with my foot, following after everyone else.

Luella's face pushes against my chest more, hiding it away from the coldness taking over the night. Her body tucks away more, clearly disturbed by the sudden position.

I hurry inside the house, quickly taking the stairs as I notice everyone in the halls getting seperated into their own bedrooms. I walk across mine, struggling to open the door before swinging it open and getting inside.

The room is exactly how I once left it, the comfort of being here slowly getting to me. I gently place Luella on top of the bed, tugging the heavy blanket to cover her body. She turns to the side more after doing, moving her face slightly, but with still closed eyes. I lean over her, taking her hair out of her face as I sit on the side of the bed, cupping her hot cheek.