Black Silk

CHAPTER 16

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Oh I just wanted to say that yes Nadia does wear hijab...And technically what they did was wrong but I wanted to show that not everyone is perfect and we all make mistakes every once in a while.
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NADIA'S POV

I stood outside our room door not wanting to go in, a single tear started to roll down my face.

How could I let him kiss me?...

Why on earth did I kiss him?...

I'm so stupid, what the fuck is wrong with me?...

Thoughts kept going through my head, my mind going back to what had just happened. More tears flowed one after the other.

Hamzah suddenly appeared at his door so I quickly tried to wipe away the tears but there was no fooling him, he had already seen that I was crying and came straight over.

"Nadia?" He asked, concerned as usual "What happened, did he fucking do something to you because I will gladly kick his arse"

"No, no he didn't do a-anything wrong I di-did..." I tried to talk through the sobs.

"Do you want to talk to me about it?" He tried to comfort me. Hamzah and I were always really close I used to tell him everything and he would tell me everything when we were in high school, so I knew I could tell him and he wouldn't judge me or anything like that.

"Okay" I said sliding down the wall to sit and he did the same. "But don't get angry" I said and he nodded.

"We'll, Raheem kiss-"

"He did what?!" He stood up quickly but I grabbed his arm and stopped him from leaving.

"Ham, please sit back down." He did as I asked "He kissed me...But-"

"I'm going to kill him. I-"

"No you're not! Shut up and let me finish please. Then you can do what you want."

"Okay, okay"

"So I went there to talk, he kissed me, he did ask if I wanted him to stop or not and I said no...and then I kinda kissed him back and now I feel horrible and like a bad Muslim and I don't know what to do" I started sobbing again

"Well nads, I don't know what to say about that but you don't need to feel bad or beat yourself up about it what's done is done, but just go and ask for forgiveness and insha'Allah Allah will answer. And can I ask something?"

"Your right I'll do that and just try forget about it" I wiped the tears "yea sure"

"I've known you for as long as I can remember and I know surely you wouldn't have kissed him back if you didn't have some sort of feelings for him...so do you?"

"Umm I don't know maybe?, yea I'm attracted to him physically but I'd need to get to know him on a more personal level d'you know what I mean"

"Yea I do, but trust me with him I don't think it's gonna be that easy he doesn't let his guard down for just anyone"

"We'll hamzah it's a good thing that I'm not just anyone ain't it" I joked