I/P ✦ Omaha

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Today I went to visit my great grandpa for what will most likely be the last time in his life. The most heart breaking thing you will ever witness is seeing someone once so strong and full of life, barely hanging on. 

I'm not in any mood to update, and I hope you all understand. I'm more than upset, and I can't get the image of him out of my head tonight. My heart is literally broken, and I can't stop crying. 

I remember him as the tallest man I've ever seen, and even though he was so big, strong and intimidating, he was so gentle with me. I have so many memories with him, and it just doesn't seem right seeing him like this.

I don't know when I'll update any of these again. I have a pre-typed chapter for Delicate and American Dream so I will publish those, but as for now I just need to lay here. 

I honestly can't believe this is happening, I'm so heart broken. I'm writing this and sobbing, and my heart hurts so much. It was so hard seeing him struggling to open his eyes just the slightest bit, or try to tell my aunts what he wanted. 

I understand that he is in so much pain, and he just wants to go home, but I'm not prepared for when I get told that he passed. I'm dreading this week, because we don't think he's going to make it to next weekend.

I hope you all understand, I'm just so drained right now. 

I miss my grandpa.

Love you,

Hannah xx