My Beautiful Karma✔(Zach James Lee)

Chapter 43. D.A.Z.

Chapter 43. D.A.Z.

Dahniea's Pov

Tahimik lang akong umiiyak habang nakaupo sa tabi ni Zach at hawak-hawak ng mahigpit ang kamay nito. Matapos kong malamang ang nangyari kina Sam at sa mga magulang ko ay nagdesisyon na akong lumabas mula sa kwarto. I don't know pero gusto ko na siyang gumising. Parang gusto kong magsumbong.

What the hell on earth is happening?!! Akala ko maayos na ang lahat. Akala ko maayos na ang plano pero bakit ganito? Bakit biglang nando'n ang mga magulang at kaibigan ko?! I'm currently having a negative thoughts right now. I don't know how to deal with it. Pakiramdam ko, anumang oras ay magwawala ako dahil sa hindi magandang balitang matanggap ko.

I don't know how to stop from crying.  I don't know what to do. I just need him right now. I'm hoping and praying that he'll open his eyes and cheer me up. I need Zach!!

"Sige na. G-Gising na please. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. H-Help me, I'm begging" my voice cracked while saying thise words. Hindi ko alam kung makakaya ko pa bang magsalita.

Kaming dalawa lang ni Zach ang naririto sa kwarto dahil ang lahat ay nasa meeting ngayon. Kahit gano'n ang nangyari, may tiwala parin ako sa kanila lalo na kay Zach. Masyado ko siyang pinagkatiwalaan at sa tingin ko, hindi ko na iyon kayang bawiin pa.

I take a deep breath before I lean my head at the edge of his bed on the side and I smiled bitterly. Hanggang kailan ba siya mahihiga dito nang walang malay? Hanggang kailan din ba ako dapat maghintay? It's not the world who's against us but those persons who wan't us to disappear on this world. Kung sana gising na siya, hindi ako mag-aalala ng husto para sa kanila.

"Y-You always show me your care without even saying you cared for me, for us, pero pakiusap ko lang, mas mapapanatag ako kung gigising ka na diyan. I need you, can you hear me?" saad ko bago sinubsob ang mukha sa kama upang pigilan ang hagulgol ko. I was gripping on his arms so tight. D*mn!! I can't imagine myself in the future without him. Paano nga ba ang magiging buhay ko kung hindi ko siya nakilala?

How can I be able to wake up without him by my side? Nasanay na ako, Zach. I'm just waiting for you to say those words I wan't to hear from you.

"J-Just those three words, then I will accept the fact that I lose already. W-Wala akong pakialam sa pride ko ngayon. G-Gusto ko lang makasama ka. Gusto kong gumising ka na. Kailangan pa kita. K-Kailangan kita habang buhay, Zach." I shooked my head when I heared my voice slowly fading. I can't say a words right now because I was crying so hard. I remember it now.

He pushed me because I was tge one who's near from the bomb. He keep our son safe kahit kapalit nito ay ang ikapapahamak niya. Now what?!! I should be the one lying on his place!!
Ako dapat 'iyong naghihirap pero ayoko rin siyang mag-alala tulad kung gaano ako nag-aalala ngayon para sa kanya.

If only I can turn back the time, then I'll change our faith. Kahit nakatakdang mangyari, pipilitin kong baguhin, for our safety, and for our happiness but being with him is such a great blessing. Ayokong mangyari ito pero ayoko din naman sa ideyang babalik kami ulit sa pagiging estranghero sa isa't isa. We're destined to be part each other's life and I won't change it anymore. I swear, I will d*mn love him with all my heart.

"Nakakatawa lang isipin 'iyong una nating pagkikita. Why are even wearing a mask on that night? You're funny" naiiling kong saad bago tumawa ng mahina pero hindi iyon nakaabot sa mga mata ko. "I wan't you to tell me a story again that's why you need to get up from that freaking bed now Mr. Zach. You have missed a lot of things. That's my favor that I wan't you to do. Sana naririnig mo ang hiling ko. Just open your eyes then I'll be fine. Acher is waiting for you. Y-You know, he always calls you. M-Maybe he missed his daddy?!!" I added while still gripping on his hand.