CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Truth
On our way back, I was quiet. Crest kept looking at my way, but doesn't say anything. Kuya Aries let us go. He didn't say anything after their talk. He just told me to be home for dinner. Hindi na rin ako nagsalita at nagtanong tungkol sa napag-usapan nila.
I was... feeling lost.
I had a hunch.
A big impossible hunch. I want to ask him. I want him to know what I'm thinking. I want to know if I'm right.
If I collate all the things that happened, all the things that they talked about and said. I had a conclusion.
Crest hold my hand. Napatingin ako sa kanya.
"Are you tired?" Halos bulong niyang tanong. It seems like he knows.
Pakiramdam ko alam niya kung anong tumatakbo sa isip ko. Na marami akong tanong.
Lumabas siya ng kotse, seconds after the door on my right opened.
"Come on..." Inalalayan ako ni Crest lumabas.
When we got to his condo. He closed the door.
I sat down on his couch. I hug my legs. Crest sat down on the coffee table in front of me, staring.
"What are you thinking..."Mahinang tanong niya.
Tumaas ang tingin ko sa kanya. Malambot ang tingin niya. He was looking at both of my eyes, palipat-lipat.
"Why does the people around me knows you..." Dahan dahan kong tanong. " And I don't?"
Nakitaan ko ng sakit ang mga mata niya. It's like its talking to me, but I cannot comprehend.
"I had an accident Crest. Years ago. I woke up in a hospital, without any memories of why did I end up there."
"They told me it was a car accident. I had a concussion. And the reason.. I don't remember the events before and after the accident, was because of the trauma."
"It was Antreas who told me that."
Crest was just listening. He didn't even budge to what I said. I figured he knows already.
"The things is... I used to believe that."
"Tell me Crest..." I continued "Is it true? Does anything Antreas told me was true?"
Lumalim ang paghinga ni Crest.
"I had a hunch Crest... you just have to say yes or no. And all I want is for you to not lie to me... "
Nanginig ako. I was trembling, but because I hid my fist between my legs and tummy, he didn't see it.
"Tell me... do I know you before?"
The pain in Crests eyes was unbearable. He was silent.
Tumulo ang luha ko.
"Tell me..." Inabot ng nanginginig kong kamay ang pisngi niya
"Kasama ka ba... sa mga nakalimutan ko?" My voice broke.
Lalo akong naiyak nang nakita kong may pumatak din na luha kay Crest. He tried to look away but I saw it.
Humagulgol ako. He didn't need to say anything. Alam ko naman. I got the confirmation through his actions. From the way everything happened. Sa lahat ng mga bagay na pinakita niya. The silent hurt in his eyes that I failed to see everytime.
Malakas na ang hikbi ko. He run his thumb across my cheek and then reached for me and hugged me tightly.
I cried on his neck.
And all I could say to him repeatedly is that 'I'm sorry'
I tried so hard to embrace him. Ayoko na siyang pakawalan. Pinagdarasal ko na sana kahit sa yakap ko lang maibsan ang lahat ng sakit na dulot ko. Na sana huwag niya akong iwan...kahit ang sakit sakit na.
I don't know If I could still be sane if I will hear the truth of everything.
I know that he could tell me everything. But he won't. And I didn't ask him for more answers. There is something that stopping him from completely telling me everything.
I sat on his bed. He's not here yet.
I'm preparing myself for another yet big piece of the puzzle. Napatingin ako sa pinto ng bumukas ito. Antreas stop on his track as soon as he saw me in his room.
Yes. It was him. He knows what happened more than I do. It was him after all who control everything from the start.
He sigh.
"If you're here to beg me about Hunt. Forget it..." He opened his closet.
"No. Im not..."
Bumaling siya sakin. Hawak niya ang isang putting t-shirt.
"What?" He asked.
I looked at him straight in the eyes. "I'm here to ask you about my memories."
Kita ko ang gulat sa mga mata niya. For a second I saw fear in it.
Nilapag niya ang hawak niya sa ibabaw ng study table. "What about it?" He asked while he wasn't looking.
"There are parts of my memories that I don't remember. Especially before the accident..."
"I want to know about it." Natigilan siya. He still wasn't looking at me. "I figured out of all the people I know. YOU would be the one to know almost everything."
"I-I already told you, ads..." He was tense.
Tumayo ako at lumapit sa kanya. Napatingin siya sa banda ko pero hindi sakin.
"I want to hear it again."Buong tapang kong sambit.
I can see it now. His actions are clear to me now. Why didn't I notice this earlier?
He was scared. And I can see it. Just like you, you can't escape your twin too.
"I think it's time for you to be honest with me, Antreas."
Napatingin siya sakin. There's fear in his eyes. He then close his eyes and bow his head, as if defeated.
