Chapter Fifty-Seven: Feelings
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Shamie's POV
I was startled when I heard someone asked that kind of question beside me. It was Jayce. Jusko! Hindi ko knows na may katabi na pala ako. Agad kong pinatay ang phone ko and slid it inside my bagpack bago ako humarap sa kanya.
"Shamie? You're tearing up a little bit," he said and carefully wiped the tears that was about to flow down my face. Syempre, dahan-dahan labg dahil baka masira ang make-up ko. Any minute ay magsisimula na kaming sumampa sa stage.
"Are you okay?" Pag-uulit nya sa tanong nya kanina. Tumango lang ako bilang sagot.
Okay lang naman ako, medyo. I'm a bit sad for my brother, now that Mom's no longer with us, I know it's hard for him. Na hindi manlang nya nakasama si Mommy ng matagal, tapos ngayon, hindi din nya kami makasamang dalawa ni Daddy.
Nagulat ako nung hawakan ni Jayce yung kanang kamay ko with his left hand. And then he made me look at him straight into his eyes.
"Are you lying?" He asked while smirking.
"N-No!" I answered, habang iniiwasan ko yung tingin nya. That kind of stare that feels like he's accusing me of something.
Oo na! Nagsisinungaling nga ako!
But as much as possible, I will keep my problems to myself. Kung kaya kong kimkimin, itatago ko sa sarili ko. Hangga't kaya ko, hindi ako iistorbo ng tao.
"I'll just pretend that you're telling me the truth," he said at umayos na ng upo. Binitawan na din nya yung kamay ko.
Isa pa kung bakit medyo okay lang ako ngayon and not totally okay. One of the reasons was because of Dad's offer. Nagbigay pa sya kanina ng brochures ng mga condos na pwede kong tirahan.
Sure, the condo units was so satisfying and I have not know the members, I might have accepted his offer. Condo unit 'yon! One of my dreams! Pinapayagan na nya ako tumira mag-isa and to have my own unit!
Pero, the situation right now is different. Because I was too attached to the members and treating them as family na. And for me, they are more than important than that condo unit.
Naguguluhan ako. As much as I wanted to live on my own, I don't want to because that means leaving the members, too. How could I do that?
"Guys, let's go backstage," Mars said so we did.
Tumayo na kami and followed her to the backstage.
This time, yung left side naman ng mukha ko yung may paint. Now, I'm wearing a black ribbon strapped galaxy dress, length is two inches below the knee. White shirt tied in a knot yung gilid, I wore it underneath the dress. And I partnered it with black heels.
The real plan for my wear was the galaxy printed skirt, kaso, hindi pumayag yung nga members kasi masyado daw namang vulgar yung skin ko. And also, I didn't want to wear it either kasi ang lamig, baka sipunin ako.
