ftm reader x various oneshot book

Akutagawa x reader x Atsushi///numb

Requested by: HomoForReki 

Hope this is what you had in mind? I know you use he/they pronouns so that's what I tried for in this one. I'm sorry it's short, and probably crappy.

{Hypoesthesia is the loss or reduction of sense of touch. Yes, I looked it up.}

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Akutagawa Ryuunosuke lay in bed, moving his fingers across the blanket. The sensation barely registered. His hand tingled where it brushed against the textured fabric of his boyfriend Atsushi's fuzzy tiger-striped blanket. But he couldn't feel it, not the way he could in the past. It gave him a dose of melancholy, knowing he might never fully experience tactile sensations again.

His sense of touch was slowly fading, due to the nature of his ability Rashōmon, and he absolutely despised feeling this weak.

He hated that he couldn't really feel this stupid blanket, or anything else. 

"Hey, Ryuu, you awake?"

And he absolutely detested the thought of being unable to feel Atsushi or (Y/n)...

Atsushi was still fast asleep, a mess of limbs tangled up with Ryuunosuke's as he snored lightly, but (y/n) was awake, (e/c) eyes still slow from sleep. He clearly hadn't been awake long, unlike Ryuunosuke who had woken up some time ago. 

"Yes, I'm awake."

He'd been awake for some time, with the same thought. What happens when, one day, I wake up and have no idea whether they're with me or not? What will I do when the feel of them no longer registers? What will I do?

(Y/n) smiled, closing their eyes again as they snuggled Ryuunosuke. "I'm gonna go back to sleep."

"Oh."

"I don't have to if you'd rather talk, but I don't wanna wake up Atsu-chan. He looks so sweet when he sleeps, y'know?"

"Yes, I know. I have the cutest boyfriends."

(Y/n) grinned. "Awww."

"You guys know I've been awake this whole time, right...?" said Atsushi.

"Damn, did I wake you?" "I'm so sorry, Atsushi!" Atsushi's boyfriends spoke at the same time.

"No, it's nothing like that, don't worry! I just didn't want to get up.."

"Well, let's just stay in bed today," (y/n) suggested. "What do you think, Ryuu?"

"Whatever you two want is fine with me," he said. He'd decided, when his sense of touch first started fading, that he wanted to savor all of his time with his boys. And who would pass up a day cuddling in bed with their two perfect boyfriends, just to go to work? Not Ryuunosuke, certainly.

He closed his eyes, holding Atsushi and (y/n) close.

The three of them spent most of their morning falling in and out of sleep. Around noon, Atsushi started begging for chazuke. (Y/n) sheepishly admitted his own hunger, and so they went out for a nice lunch after getting dressed.

Ryuunosuke held Atsushi's and (y/n)'s hands, ecstatic with how solid they felt in this moment. He forgot how easily, and how quickly, the feeling could fade..

He was happy in this moment, things were calm and the three boys were content. (Y/n) swung his and Ryuunosuke's hands back and forth, grinning at him. Atsushi laughed and did the same. Ryuunosuke felt the movement of his arms, felt the resistance of the wind, and he closed his eyes blissfully, drinking in the feeling of this moment, the abundance of sensations that were his to experience. Days like this were becoming less and less common.