THE UNWANTED (COMPLETED)

22-The Absences

   Days passed, I'm in my bed again. Feeling weak and dying. I've got a cold again.

My health keep on getting worse everyday. I'm here at my bed. Sitting, waiting Logan to pick me up. We are going to see a Doctor. They insisted to bring me to a Doctor already. A private Doctor, for publicity avoidance. I'm still an Esguerra and bringing troubles for the Esguerra's right now is out of my dictionary. I maybe hate some of them but they're still my family and I don't want Tita and Nicholas faced an issue or even dragged them to my misery especially if I'm the one involved.

Catherine said this is no joke anymore. A fast drop of my body is the evidence. Masyado na akong payat at maputla. I lost appetite too.

Hearing a Doctor brought some impacted to me. I am afraid to know what's really my condition. I know. I can feel it there's something wrong to me. This is my body. I'm hugging my body leaning on the headboard. Then, I was disturbed by a knocked on the door. I turned my gazed to the door. Logan's entered with an unreadable expression. I smiled weakly to him. He didn't smiled back.

'He's really disturbed and bothered about my condition.'

"Louigi Gan Cortez, I'll be okay. Don't stress yourself to much. Papangit ka niyan. Ikaw din wala ng maghahabol sayong girls or worse di kana balikan ng ex mo!" My joke didn't moved him. He just stared at me with his expression. My smile faded away. I can't take it anymore. I can't even comfort him. I can't comfort myself. I bite my lower lip. I avoided his eyes. My eyes started to cloud. My breathing started to became heavy. My hands started to trembled.

'I'm fucking scared. I'm not ready to know my condition. I'm not.' He sat beside me and hugged me.

"I'm just here, Mary. No matter what happened I won't leave you. I will do everything to make you better even if it takes my abundance and beauty." My silent cry continue. His words never touched my anxieties.

"Logan, I'm neglecting school. What about my studies? My records will be affected. I don't want to be unlisted to the President's Lister. Shaming my name about school is not my thing. I'm not afraid how my family think about my school I'm afraid to myself. I'm afraid that I'll disappoint myself. I have a high standards when it comes to my stu---"

"Shhh, calmed down. I'll take care of it. I will go to your school to talk about it. I'm going to asked them to excuse you for some personal matter and asked them to let you take your final exams early than the others, instead." I nodded myself slowly but it only give me a headache. I bite my lip. Its getting painful everyday.

'I'm really scared'

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I'm at the backseat. Catherine's hugging me tightly. I feel so cold so, I wear a jacket and pants. I even wear a bonnet. My head is aching again.

Catherine's heat is very helpful. They turned off the aircon. I feel guilty I can saw the sweats on their foreheads. The heat of summer triggered it too.

"I'm sorry." They glanced at me in synchronized. I smiled a bit.

"What's for, Mary?" The low voice of Catherine is comforting. Oh I love to hear it more, near my ear.

"For bothering you guys and for---"

"Drop it, Mary. Don't think too much. We are okay. That's more important so, you need to be okay too." Logan's authority invaded around. I shut my mouth feeling guilty again. I can feel Catherine's nodding, and I saw Kuya Jun's neutral face in the rearview mirror, he also nod his head.