THE UNWANTED (COMPLETED)

25-The Forgiveness

   I'm currently answering the rest of my exams. Only Catherine is here. Yes, my mind is clear. I'm in my normal state. The difference is, I'm weakling. I'm already so thin.

Last night we talked about our flights to States. Logan and Kuya Jun are taking care of my papers. Last night ko lang din nalaman na I've been here for 9 days. Doctor Silva still monitoring me. They rushed things, I'm getting weak day by day.

Harper and Lily are in school. Finals is next week. They're trying to focus on their study.

My family still don't know about my condition. I also don't want them to know. I'm afraid to know that they're happy knowing that I'm suffering and I'm afraid Nicholas skip school just to be here with me. And I'm afraid that Tita and Dad got into fight by coming here. I can remember my behavior and moods last few days. I feel very sorry to them. I wanted to say sorry but I wanted them all here. So, I stayed quiet the whole time I'm awake. I keep on yawning but I just shaked it off. My eyelids are heavy now but I just blinked it few times.

Catherine keep on glancing on me. She's in the sofa at the corner. She's doing something on her laptop. I don't know.

"Mary!" She called me softly. I glanced at her with my sleepy face.

"What?" My husky voice is not good.

"If you're too sleepy. You can sleep already. You can answered it later when you wake up. You need rest. Its not good for you."

"It's okay, I'm in my last test paper. I'm just going to answer it and I'm going to rest after." She smiled understandingly. She nodded.

"Good luck! If you need help please don't hesitate to ask me." I can't smiled back. I'm still guilty. I just nod my head and brought my eyes back to my test paper. The half part of my body is being stiffened. I'm thankful that it's not in my left hand. So, I'm continuing my test. Pinipilit ko, kasi di ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa sa susunod na paggising ko.

I already feel the tiredness and weakness of my system. I'm fighting it. I don't want them to be worried to me again. I already caused them too much trouble. I already consumed their time and personal life. That's why I'm so guilty. At the back of my test papers. I left a small note to my professors.

Saying thank you for teaching me and being honored to be under them. I also sent a prayer for them. I'm doing this because I'm not sure if I can go back to school. I have this feeling inside of me that this is not gonna be easy. I'm sacrificing my study for my own health. I know Health is more important than my study but I'm still regretting it. I smiled a bit after I wrote my last note. I organized it inside of the envelope.

"Cath!" I called her. She immediately look at me and smiled.

"Yes Mary?"

"Can I have a water please?" She smiled beautifully to me.

"Wait!" A happy tone is visible to her voice. Lumapit siya sa akin at iniabot ang bukas ng bottled water. "Here!" I smiled a bit to her that made her smiled more.

I drank all the water inside of the bottle. Bottoms up. I breathe heavy after I drank it all. I feel like I haven't drink water since I laid here.

"Thank you Catherine!"

We exchanged smile and be contented.

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I heard voices. They are talking.

"Gusto ko sanang sumama pero hindi pwede!" Malungkot na boses ni Lily ang unang narinig kong malinaw.

"It's okay Lily. We're going to contact each other. I'll update you everyday. I promise."