THE UNWANTED (COMPLETED)

34-NICHOLAS ELIAS ESGUERRA

Nicholas Elias Esguerra

   I'm currently sitting here at the bleachers. I still have a class. I'm always too eager to go out. BI'm always so eager to visit her. I looked up. Watching the blue sky never given me a happiness anymore. It's like I lost my hope. Her last words still hunting me before she drifted to her long sleep.

'Ate! I missed you so much.'

The bubbly and sweet me is gone. I've changed. I became so far from them. It feels like being with them is killing me now. It's suffocating. I lost the will to be happy. I feel sorry for being so cold to Mom but I can't. I can't brought back the old Nicholas they knew.

When ate left at our house. The house became so quiet. The house became so sad. The house became so lonely. That's the time I started to changed. I never smiled again. I never looked at their faces again. They're only giving me a madness. I breathe heavily.

"Nick!" She's here again. I never glanced at her. I stayed looking up. "Are you going to visit your sister? Can I come?"

"No!" I know she pouted like she always do.

"Why? I really wanted to see her personally. You know I really idolized her beauty. I heard she's very kind and sweet."

"No! It's a family matter. A non-member of the family is not free to go there. So, stop your dreams. It will only hurt you." After I said that I left her there. That girl. She keep on tailing me and telling nonsense things. She always brought the topic about Ate.

I'm already in my Grade 11 in Senior High School. I'm Still continuing my school here at BU. Well, a family legacy. It's just, it pained me more knowing Ate stopped her studies. I know she's very disappointed. She love studying and I also knew that she wanted to be a Lawyer. She can't just decide for herself before.

I made my way to my next class. I don't care if it's still early. The students keep on glancing at me. I didn't gave them an attention. I don't care about them.

The people around the country knew about Ate's condition. It's still all over the news. The Esguerra is really known. Our security became strictly guarding us. The paparazzi's keep on tailing us. We decided to only give information about her, if Dad wanted too.

He did before, when Ate is in the operating room. He did his part. He told the people around that, Ate is a legitimate child of him. That Ate's disappearance is because of her condition. He announced it in national TV. He only did it once and he never talked about it publicly anymore. He's the one who put too much security to us. To the hospital and to ate's room at the hospital.

No one is allowed to go there. Only the family and Ate's closes friend. They're ate's family though when Dad abandoned her. I planted a hatred over him. I never idolized him now, nor my Kuya's. Before, I'm really amazed how composed and intimidating they are but, I don't care about them anymore. Ate's condition is what's important to me now.

The room filled with silence as I entered. It's early but they make the room a playground. It's always like this now. When I entered they became silent. No one dared to talk. They will only stay quiet or left the room.

I put my headphone that I always brought on my neck everywhere. It became my companion when ate been lying. The music calmed me. The rhythm put me outside of this world. The tone remind me with ate. She thougt I didn't know that she's playing instrument. I always caught her secretly when she's playing with her violin. I always sneaked into her room before.

A message tone suddenly stop my Music, and continue again. I checked the sender.

Mommy sent you a message...