THE UNWANTED (COMPLETED)

35-ESPERANZA REYES-ESGUERRA

Esperanza Reyes-Esguerra

   To:Baby Nick
'Son, let's visit your Ate together after your school'

From:Baby Nick
'I'm going alone'

I breathe hardly after I read it. I slowly put my phone down. I leaned on my chair. I looked up, I let my hands lied in my lap.

Everything's changed. We both lost something. After Natasha's departure, our house became dim. That's the time Nicholas been cold to us. He's like Mac now. The difference is, Mac is so closed to me while him, he's been so far to me now. I can't read him anymore. I can't understand him anymore. I can't recognized him anymore. Natasha's disappearance had a big impact to him.

I closed my eyes as I remember those times that he and Natasha still together. I've been watching them. They're so cute together. I saw how they love each other. Of all their siblings, those two are the closest. I saw how Natasha treated his younger brother. She's always happy having around Nicholas. I'm so happy. She accepted him wholeheartedly. She don't mind the complications. She also treated me well. She treated me like her real mother. I really love that child. The first time I saw her, she's all smile. Before, when I married Nathaniel, her brothers been so far from me. They never talked to me. They don't like me to be their new Mom. I said to myself 'It's okay, Nathaniel already married me. Soon, they will accept me.'

2 years passed being their new mother, It's still nothing happened. I did everything to be closed to them but they don't want me to have space inside of their hearts. Mac is talking to me but he's still cold.

Nathaniel is treating me well but there's something he's lack with. He admitted he love me but I know MaryDale is his great love. I understand but I'm envied. MaryDale's so lucky to have them.

Those times that Natasha already live here. The house became lively. Her voice brought liveliness. Her laugh always opened a light. Her smile made us complete everyday. She's so kind and sweet. She treated me well. She talked to me always. She asked about my day. She helped me preparing foods. She helped me taking care of Nicholas. She helped me to be more like a mother figure. She's the one who shaped me.

I felt my tears boiled. I'm again in pain. Always. She doesn't deserve this. She deserve to be treated like a real princess, like how real she is. I'm very worried about her. I missed her so much. I missed how she called me Tita with joy and happiness. I missed her voice. I miss everything about her. I became lost the day I saw her lying lifelessly. Panting hard and trying to fight for her life.

When Nicholas cried hard. I felt like I also died that day. She made us lost and ruined. We were broken into pieces. She almost left us. She almost. My tears finally fell. I just let it fall. My heart is aching again. It's always aching now. She brought too much madness and hatreds. She break us and at the same time she reunited us. With her condition, her brothers and Father woke up with their dark imagination. Her lifeless body made them stunned. Made them realized something and that is, her importance.

I saw the changes. I witnessed how their day changes. How their routine changes. How their mood changes. How their principles changes and how their feelings changes.

I'm there, watching them happily and at the same time hurting. Why? Because they realized it when Natasha almost left us, now that she's been suffering, now that she's lying in that bed... lifelessly again. Breathing but, slowly dying.

I bend over on my table. Hugging myself. It hurts. It hurts knowing that in the end there's a chance that she'll left us. We're here fighting and praying for her but we can see how she's suffering. With those painful day when her heart suddenly stop. Its always break us over and over again. It happened always now. In a week she's almost gone for about 4-6 days.