I'm ALWAYS here

Chapter 19

I spent 5 days in the hospital. I slept a lot, but Rick talked to me. Alexis also was visiting and we played. When I returned home, Rick was forcing me to eat. I tried only for him, but it was very difficult. I bear it for 14 days. At the precinct, I just did the papers because Gates didn’t let me work harder. As soon as Rick stopped watching at me, I stopped eating. I hid it. Rick knew nothing. I didn’t bother him. I was tired. I had no energy to work and everything in life. We were together a month and a half. Our relationship was the best thing that ever happened to me.

When we were together three months, I was starving for a month and a half. I was very tired. With Castle, we had almost no romance because of me. He didn’t notice that I don’t eat again. Only once he said that I lost weight when he held me in his arms. I told him no and we didn’t more talked about it.
I was sitting at my desk at the precinct. Rick was at home because he had to write. I filled the form. Espo was to get murder suspect. The victim was a man, 45 years old, two gunshots to the head. Our suspect was the last person who saw the murdered man alive.
Before Espo came, I had the coffee. I was tired and my head ached. When they arrived, I went into the interrogation room. I sat on a chair and spread my papers. I began to ask some different questions. Ryan knocked on the door. I got up and I made a step toward the door. I felt dizzy and then I collapsed. Espo was trying to catch me, but he didn’t make it. Ryan rammed the door and they both knelt at me. Espo was slapping my cheeks little bit.
"Kate! Beckett! Wake up!" shouted Espo. I looked at him with my tired eyes. Espo took me into his arms and carried me into the restroom.

"Hey bro, give her some sugar," said Espo. Ryan took the sugar and put it in my mouth. I was too weak to defend myself. I curled up in a chair. Espo put a blanket over me and I closed my eyes.
"We need to call Castle," said Ryan.
"Sure, we have to. Beckett doesn’t eat and thinks that nobody noticed it," said Espo and took the phone.
"Castle. Come for Beckett. She collapsed here ... Yeah ...Okay," he said.
"In 10 minutes he will be here. We have to inform him. Kate needs to heal. She still suffers rape. She needs help," agreed the two. I didn’t perceive it. I was thinking about Castle and Alexis. After a while I fell asleep.