I'm ALWAYS here

Chapter 14

Rick grabbed my hand and dragged me into the bathroom. He put me in the shower and turned cold water on. I yelled and jumped out of the shower, but he pushed me back under the cold water. When helped me climb off of the shower, he wrapped a towel around me, took me in his arms and carried me to bed. I was in shock and quiet. He went into the kitchen for a moment. When he returned, he handed me a glass of water. I drank and I put the glass on the nightstand.

"Kate," he said calmly and took my hand, "I don't want anything from you. I don't want to have sex with you, not now. Come on, talk to me," he said. I sat into his lap, and he wrapped his arms around me. I rested my head on his chest, and I let the water out of my hair flowing down to his shirt. I needed to calm down. We just sat there in silence. Rick stroked my hair and face and I breathed deeply. We sat like a couple of minutes before I broke the silence.

"Sorry," I whispered, and I pressed closer to him, "I don't know what happened. I had the darkness before my eyes and then I realized I'm standing in the shower," I said quickly.

"Hey, it's okay. You just need therapy. I know an excellent psychologist. His name is Neal. He will help you," he said soothingly and kissed my hair. I nodded, drank water again.

"Thank you. Will you come to the first meeting with me?" I asked.

"I can come with you for more meetings, but I want you to go there. You'll feel better. Oh and by the way you're beautiful when you're naked," he said. I smiled and kissed him. He gave it back to me and held me under my back. Then we lied down and fell asleep hugging each other.

The next day morning was normal. Right after lunch we went to Neal. He was a tall man with brown hair and green eyes. He greeted me and Rick and began to talk to me. First I had to tell everything, then he asked various questions and I answered. At the end of the session he gave us advice.

"You are a beautiful couple, Rick. And you, miss Beckett, are sweet and nice woman. Make a nice weekend. Go to dinner or watch a movie and enjoy it. You both need to calm down. Especially a lot of talk together, cuddling together, as much as Kate allows, and don't let the injury to obstruct you from normal life. Now it's gone," he said, and shook first my hand and then Rick's.

"Thank you, Neal. I feel better now and we definitely abide to your advice," I said with a sincere smile. Rick took my hand. We said our goodbyes and we left for home. On the way we picked Alexis from kindergarten. Alexis went to her room and drew. Me and Castle curled up together on the couch. He stroked my hair and after every fifth caress kissed me on cheek. I was happy. Although it was not only the first session, it helped me. I felt much better than the previous day. Weekend started in two days. We agreed that Alexis will be with Martha, and me and Rick will go to dinner and watch a movie.