When we arrived at the gynecology, we sat on the chair. I bit my lip. Again, I felt fear. I didn’t want to someone touch me especially not on the crotch. Now I couldn’t back out. Rick sat next to me and trying to figure out what I was thinking about. In about 15 minutes the nurse called us. We went inside and the doctor told me to undress and lie down on the bed. When I wore a shirt and bra, I stand to Rick.
"Miss, please lie down," said the doctor.
"You know, the problem is that Kate was raping for three months," said Rick. I took a deep breath and slowly lay down on the bed. Rick asked me if he could stay. I agreed. Although I couldn’t take his touch, I wanted him to be with me. He sat beside the bed and the whole time he was looking in my eyes. I saw in his eyes the love and care he felt for me. Doctor spread my legs and began to control me. He wanted to touch me when I got a panic attack and tried to flee. The doctor took an injection and poked me sedatives. Rick stroked my hair over and I just looked at him sadly.
"I'm sorry, but you know there was no other way," the doctor apologized and continued examination.
Right after that he told me that I will stay a few days in hospital and psychologist will come and talk to me. I nodded. Right after that, we went with Rick to my apartment and we packed some clothes. I could not think about anything. Everything was in a fog. I was in a daze.
"Kate?" said Rick a little shook with me. I did not realize that we're back in the hospital. I sat in bed. Rick looked worried. I smiled a little.
"Thank you. You do not have to be here," I whispered.
"But I want to be here. I want to be here with you. You probably have no idea how much you mean to me, do you?" I shook my head and he took my hand. Under his touch, I got another panic attack. Rick grabbed my hand. I started to cry.
"Please don’t cry. I hate when you cry," he said anxiously. I calmed down and tried to catch my breath. I remembered what Rick said when I was shot.
"Castle ... I ..." was all I could say before my voice broke.
"Me first. Kate, I ... "
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I'm ALWAYS here
FanfictionIt will be from Kate's POV. It starts in ep 09 in s 04 (Kill shot). Kate is still with Josh but they have lots of fights. And he maltreats her. He rapes her but she doesn't tell anyone. She loves Castle but Rick doesn't know it.
