I was so nervous sitting at the table waiting on Lily and Stokeley. I'm scared that she doesn't really like me and Jahseh is close to her so her opinion matters. I'm not too worried about the boy.
Being with Jahseh keeps making me go in out of my little state. He makes me submissive but I'm so nervous that the dominance is taking over.
"Calm down" Jahseh told me, looking over at me.
I sighed and looked down, rubbing my shaky hands on my thigh before he grabbed on of them making me look up at him. His eyes traveled my face like he was trying to read me before he pulled me closer to him.
See what I mean. I think he knows what he's doing to me.
I sighed and out my head on his shoulder while rubbed my hand with his thumb. There it is back into my little state.
I can't help it, it's him. He makes me feel safe.
After sitting a little longer they showed up and Lily was dressed in; little clothes? I looked over at Seh who looked confused as well.
"Hey Lily" he spoke and she waved.
"Hi Jawsay, my daddy got me this plush on the way here" she told him, holding up the trolls plushy.
Seh nodded but I was still confused because I didn't know Lily was a little too. Stokeley came and sat beside her, handing her a menu which made her smile.
"Y'all just been waiting?" He asked and I let Seh answer because I knew the state I was in.
I see that Lily is a little I guess but I don't want them to see that side of me yet. I don't want them to think I'm copying her.
"You okay?" Seh whispered and I nodded.
I held his hand tighter to try to calm myself but it was enough for him to pull me away.
"Y'all can get y'all drinks, we'll be back" he told Stokeley before we got up and he took me outside.
"What's wrong?" He asked me and I shook my head and looked down at my feet making him lift my head.
"Josephine" he spoke sternly to me which made me furrow my eyebrows.
"You aren't supposed to call me that" I told him no which made him smirk at me and that confused me.
"How'd you get into little state?" He asked making me roll my eyes and shake my head.
"I'm not" I tried to lie making him lean on the car and squint his eyes at me.
He kept my head in his hands though making me eyes go everywhere else. Even in my little state I still didn't want to say it was him.
I could feel him staring at me though and it didn't help.
"You don't have to worry about them judging you" he told me and I nodded.
He grabbed my hand and took my back inside he waited until he was opening the second door for us to walk to table to whisper in my ear.
"And it's okay that you're that comfortable around me" he told me making my heart drop.
I paused as I felt my face get hot and he just grabbed my hand and continued our walk to the table.
He let me get in the booth first and then slid beside me, holding my hand.
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