Letters To You (Poetry Collection)

The Pawn

I had you at the tips of my fingers,

And I let you slip right through.

But that's what made me realize

My whole world was you.

Everyday I think back and try

To figure out why I pushed you away.

I remembered I enjoyed the game. I wasn't ready to quit. I still wanted to play.

I thought no one would make me stop playing because I was a tease.

I loved to lead guys on, break their heart, then make them leave.

I loved the attention I got

From every guy in the crowd.

I adored building them up

Then tearing them down.

I only did it cause my heart had gotten broken once or twice,

And I didn't want that to happen again. So I never rolled the dice.

I figured no one would ever make me stop using people as my pawn,

But you changed me. That girl that was a player is long gone.

Every second of every day, I regret

I had to lose you before I knew

That my broken heart

Kept me from loving you.

Letting you slip through my fingers will always be my biggest regret.

One day you'll realize like I did.

That day just hasn't gotten here yet.

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