Escaping you
"I want you to be able to trust me, I want to know what's going on inside your head." I say to Everette as we stand out on our hotel balcony, Leah and Paige sleeping inside.
"I'm exhausted, Atlas." He sounds it.
I pull him into a hug.
"Talk to me, please. Really talk. Just say everything that's on your mind. Don't lie or sugarcoat it because you don't have to, Ev."
"I don't know what's wrong with me. Everything was fine, I think, and now, to put it simply, I feel the same way I did 3 years ago, I feel so hopeless and alone, although it's obvious that I'm not."
"I'm still so afraid of my parents, of what they did, what they could still do, I'm afraid of losing you, And just like I've said a thousand times before, I just want all of the pain to stop."
My heart breaks for him. I had no idea he felt like this. I pull him into a hug and he sighs
"Keep going, keep talking." I suggest and he nods his head.
"Atlas.. I don't want to say it out loud." A part of me doesn't even want to hear him say the words but I know that in order for him to even start to feel okay he needs to admit the problem, the whole problem.
"I know you don't, but you need too." I whisper, my forehead leaned against his own and his breath trembling
"I want to die, I never stopped."
I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him as tight as possible because he needs it. He needs more than me, though. He needs help, and I think he knows that.
"You know that you need to tell someone that, yeah?" I ask
"Yeah."
"I'm gonna get a therapist, I think. I've probably needed one for a long time." He laughs but his pain is so very obvious.
I nod a few times and I kiss him.
"Keep talking." I say and he rolls his eyes but starts talking anyway, and we sit and talk for a couple of hours.
I didn't know how much pain he was in, and I feel horrible for it. He was right when he said that I only ever focus on myself and there's not a bone in my body that doesn't regret what I said. I told him I regretted us and that isn't true, not even in the slightest.
We finally finish our very long conversation and I decide to ask Sydney to hang out with us, because She's the only person that I still talk to in New York.
We meet up with her at around 6, the sun just starting to go down. Traffic and people buzz in New York as I cling to Everettes side walking down the street. Sydney walks beside us and converses with Everette.
They actually have a very cute friendship, which I find surprising because I figured he wouldn't like her because she's my ex, but he was very nice about it. He didn't even care, honestly.
"Guys we should take pictures!" I blurt out excitedly and Everette's eyes widen
"No, it's not gonna happen." He says confidently and I smirk
"Syd, take pictures with me, please?" I beg, drawing out my 'E' and she complies. We run onto the sidewalk and I hand Ev my phone, who scoffs but takes it anyways. He takes several pictures of me and Sydney and finally after me begging him for 20 minutes, decides he'll take some with me.
We continue roaming the streets of the city until it's dark out, although In New York it's never dark out. The building light up the entire city and it's very pretty, actually.
I lean over to Everette "how are you?" I whisper and he smiles softly.
"I'm okay, I'll be okay." He whispers back and i nod.
"I love you." The words roll off my tongue so much easier now, and I just wonder why I didn't tell him that sooner. 6 months is a long time to be in love with someone and them have no idea.
"I love you." He replies and Sydney fake gags from beside us
"I need a girlfriend!" She exclaims loudly and me and Everette both laugh at her
"You had your chance." I say and Everette frowns
"Eh, never would've worked anyway" she shrugs and I put my hand over my heart in fake offense
"I'm hurt."
"Should I leave or?" Everette jokes and I shake my head
"Well I mean look on the bright side, now you have him." She points to Everette and starts jogging forward
"True." I reply and Ev kisses my head. I let go of his hand and jog up to Sydney, letting him hang back slightly.
"You're very cute together." She says
"Thank you."
"Also, he is one fine man. I don't even like men. But Jesus Christ the man was sculpted by a god!" She says quietly and I laugh
"You should see him shirtless" she laughs
"He really is though, perfect for you. The way he defended you last night at dinner, he's a good guy." I smile and nod
She suddenly stops walking and Everette starts to catch up to us
"Atlas I'm really sorry, for hanging out with Andy after he did what he did. I think all of us are starting to realize it was wrong, which it was, and I should've never stood by him. Even though you moved, I still should've seen it, I never should've stayed friends with him."
Everette reaches us and looks at us confused
"It's okay Sydney. I don't even think I really knew it was wrong until last night, I can't expect you guys to stop hanging out with him, we've all known him since he was a kid, that holds value."
"Okay I really do feel like I should leave now." Everette says sheepishly and I shake my head at him
"You're so annoying." I laugh and he nods.
Sydney nods to me about what I said and we leave it at that. Eventually I get tired and we all get a cab, Sydney goes home and we go back to the hotel.
When we get there I go swimming with Paige and Leah, Everette said he wanted to be alone for a while and I understand that, plus I wanted to hang out with my sister.
We all swim around for a while before going up to the room, Everette peacefully sleeping on our bed. I laugh softly at his tiny snores.
Me, Leah, and Paige take turns showering, me going last and everyone being asleep when I get out. I lay down beside Everette and kiss his forehead.
"I love you, pretty boy." I whisper and he smiles in his sleep.
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Sorry for the wait, school just started last Thursday and I'm honestly so conflicted about this book, even though I really do love it :)
I'll try to start updating more frequently, but with school just starting it may be a few days to a week between updates
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Escaping you |EDITING|
Teen FictionThey both craved something more, something to fill the emptiness that their lives held, but neither of them expected for the love they shared to change their lives for good.
