HEART knows where HOME is

Part 14

PART 13

"Im going with Keith...in this way we can try to shut the rumors down and you can have enough time to think and clear your mind.":-I said and as I finished my statement..I turned my head to Ash....whom for the last minutes I have been trying not to make eyes contact with just to be met with the most hurt expresion I have ever seen on Ash for these ten years of our friendship.I have seen him many times broken...I have fixed his pieces and have learned how to read his emotions...I have seen him in many ways..but this..the face I had in front of my eyes right now...wasnt the face of a shattered heart...no!...it was the face of a dead one...he looked like I had just pulled the trigger in his heart...like the moment where a person gets betrayed by his most loved one and cant seem to believe the situation is real..a person who doesnt want to accept the harsh reality...here...in front of my eyes...was a dead Ash.

For a second nothing was heard...not even a breathing sound...you could literally hear even the wind who was playing with the leaves outside and crushing them to the kitchens window glasses.Nobody dared uttering a word or even making a sound.For a second all the time stopped...and everything falled into silence...a silence which was killing my soul...but I dont think it was doing the same to Ashs soul too....you know why?...bcs Ashs soul was already dead by now...and it was me who killed it...

"Then go!":-Ash said his voice almost as a whisper.

I wouldnt have heard it if it wasnt for the drop pin silence who had covered the place...or the fact that my heart was eager to know his next words...why was it?idk.

"What?";-I asked..my voice as a whisper too.

"GO!":-he shouted now and by the sudden change I flinched.His tone making my body move back in its own and crush into Keiths hard chest.

"Go and dont turn back ever again.":-he said now in a much normal voice but still hard as a steel:-"or stay and make him leave....nor me nor him...THERE IS NO IN BETWEEN":-he added...his voice full of venom.

Standing before this impossible choice I couldnt bring myself to give an answer so without thinking....maybe more from my mind then from my heart I said:

"Keith lets go!"

"Huh?":-Keith said still dazzled from the moment:-"you choose me?":-he added knowing he was adding fuel to the fire.

Now closing my eyes and taking a deep breath(in the proces a betrayer tear falled from my eyes) I said:

"Im not choosing...it doesnt make a sense to...you are my fake husband while Ash is my best friend...my brother...I dont see a reason why to choose in here...just as I said Im leaving for some time...in this way we can end our deal and have some time to clear our minds...as it seems we both need this":-I stated not breaking my eye contact with Ash for not even a second.

"There is no such as time to clear our minds Laura":-Ash said with pain in his words...and now I noticed he called me from my first name...something he rarely does:-"if you go then this is over...WE are over...there will be no US anymore...we will be just two strangers who never met before and thats it..."

"How can you say this after all the hard times we have went by together?Where they nothing to you?:-I shouted.

"Nothing?the moments I have passed with you Laura are the most beautiful moments of my life...it was the where the whole world was so far to damage me...because your presence was the strongest barrier to keep out all the bad things..you were a moment of peace in the middle of the war...you were a place to go in the middle of nowhere...you were warmness to my cold heart...you were the only person which I could call ....home...yes yes you were my home...and I have never stopped loving you since the first day I saw you...but it seems it was not me the one for whom this memories were nothing...it was you..this whole time...the heartless one was you...